gone

he left me hanging here

he's the one who makes me falling in love

and falling apart

i don't know when time would erase all the memories

a part of me wants to keep it

and yet another part of me doesn't want to

he's just too real

apa2an nih???

hari begini nih yg selalu pengen gw jauhin...
hari2 dimana saya sangatlah tidak sadarkan diri...
mau ngelakuin ini kayaknya salah, apalagi ngelakuin itu...
trus jadi gak semangat ngapa2in...
senyum sih senyum... ketawa jg tetep jalan...
cman rasanya ada yg ngeganjel gt di hati *halah bahasanya*

dan ini semua gara2... JENG JENG... *note: bukan gara2 jeng2.. itu cman tambahan biar makin horray getoh.. lagian apa pula itu jeng2*

gara2... ENG ING ENG... *note: bukan gara2 eng ing eng jg kok.. dan saya tau yg baca pasti rasanya ingin nendang gw layaknya bola yg lge dielu2kan di world cup ini, bukan begitu bukan?*

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE SEBODO AMAT!!!

ini semua gara2.... HAAAAAA biarlah saya simpan di dalam hati dulu... sumpah deh sumpah rasanya pengen nangis... pengen ngeluarin semua nya... tapi kalo dipikir2 kok rasanya gembel banget kl diceritain... norak banget maxudnya... gak penting buat dipikirin tp kepikiran... gimana inih?? saya tau tak ada yg bisa ngebantu since gw belom cerita apa2... mwahahahahahaha... dan ngapain juga gw tulis2 dsini?? biarin lah... biar penonton penasaran *enggak ya?? huuuuuu*

AAAARRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

hiks hiks hiks... well how could you do this to me?? sengaja bikin gw keliatan kayak orang tolol ya?? ???*apa emang tolol beneran gw??* kalo begitu mah dr awal jgn gtu ngapaaaaaaaaaa... huhuhuhu saya tidak mau iniiiiii... jadi pengen pulang... pengen nangis... tapi gak bisa... ketahan di tenggorokan... tapi pengen banget nangis... knp sih gw... aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dasar edan!! ngomong sendiri pula... T_T

yah last words buat post ini deh: usai sudah!

saman dance

'>

@ ap house welcome party for newcomers spring 2006

enjoy

brokenheart

i found cute twins

but then i found out that one of them

is MARRIED

what a life!

okay okay i'm not THAT desperate

hatred

i HATE him

i really DO

april mop, hey!

ternyata april mop itu masih jaman ya.. tgl 1 april kmaren gw chatting sama santi n tephen, conference gtu... n tephen ngomongin ttg bunpo ngerjain dia [yeah well april mop thingy lah] n tephen ngebales bunpo pake nama gw! gembel. kira2 gini lah...

tephen: ntar kalo bunpo nanya bilang iyah aja yah..

ai: nanya apa phen?

tephen: udah, bilang iya aja..

tiba2 bunpo muncul manggil gw..

bunpo: ii, kata tephen.. kata tephen loh.. katanya kamu bla bla bla bla....

~~~siiiiiiiing~~~ sialan. tapi yah terusin aj lah.. seru juga kayaknya... hihihihi... dan akhirnya gw bilang iyah.. dan bunpo percaya!! begini...

bunpo: serius ii?? kapan??

ai: hari ini po..

bunpo: serius ii?? kok bisa??

ai: soalnya po.. hari ini APRIL MOP.. mwahahahahahahaa..

bunpo: kunyuk

gyahahahahahaha ternyata seru jg ngerjain bunpo *eh po piss yey.. bercanda loh.. salahin tephen itu pake2 nama gw segala* cman yaah kok bunpo bisa percaya yaa?? itu hil yg mustahal begituuu...

oh iyah... kmaren bokap ke flea market dan tebak pulang2 bawa apa?? komputer apple warna ijo!! emang udah lama sih n gak ada keyboard nya.. tapi masih jalan n banyak bgt video klipnya namie amuro *surga bagi tephen tuh =P* dan beli nya cman 3000 yen saja!!! BENAR!! 3000 YEN!! gilingan... mana ada sih komputer harga segitu.. aheuaheuahuehauehauaheu.. yah cman masih belom bisa dipake sepenuhnya since GAK ada keyboard.. ehehehehehehe...

saya cinta hijau!! dan saya cinta mighty ducks!! *loh?* dan saya cinta banks!! *loh? loh?*

no more dramas

oh please no more dramas
no more plays
no more what-eva
coz i've seen too much
here and there
around me
as if i'm the cameraman
taping all events that's happening
good or bad
happy or sad
warmness or coldness
everything
or even sometimes
being the actress herself
protagonist or antagonist
i can perform both
but there are times
i feel like being the director
so when i've had enough of something
i'll simply scream
"CUT!"
and that's it
that's how it all goes on and on and on
or maybe being cameraman isn't that bad
at all
coz being an actress
is something i've been passing up

it's called hanami

ah what a lovely couple


















they're having so much fun!












sakura means bye bye winter hello spring

so who's this guy anyway?

tadi pergi ke nikko

bersama keluarga saya dan keluarga om djuandi

perjalanan mayan jauh d

*padahal tewas gt di mobil*

qta ke shrine pertama2

naek tangga yg bertingkat2 *pastinyalah ya*

lalu

pergi ke desa ninja

bernama edo wonderland

*agak bikin ilpil ye namanya*

dingin gila!

ada salju pula!

busyet coba tolong ini tgl brapa???

30 maret jek n masih bersalju

mana gw cman pake jaket seadanya ToT

menggigil lah kami smua

oh iyah, ada pertunjukkan ninja

kinda funny, yeah we laughed

trus show 1 lge kyk sulap air gtu

freaking funny!

tp salju merusak segalanya

trus ada kumpulan orang2

sepertinya dr negara *sensor*

diliat dr bentuk wajah dan bahasa

yah itulah inti dr hari ini

quotes

friendship is constant in all other things

save in the office and affairs of love:

therefore all hearts in love use their own tongues;

let every eye negotiate for itself

and trust no agent

william shakespeare

new means not old

semester baru.

kelas baru.

semangat baru.

prioritas baru.

semua serba baru.

apakah gebetan juga akan baru??

mari kita lihat nanti.

hihihihihihihihi.

johari

http://kevan.org/johari?name=aibeBiH

fill it out for me.

just be honest. =P

love and affair

starting next semester . . .
i wanna take the library as my boyfriend.
we can have fun reading books.
or simply spend time together.
we'll be flawlessly perfect for each other.
it's fair enough.
and i wanna make my own room my affair.
we can have a good time w/out 'him' to know.
sounds bad? or weirdo? or pathetic?
say as you please.
uh yeah!
it's gonna be the most romantic semester ever.
can't hardly wait.
but sssttt . . . it's a secret.
*wink wink*

hush-hush

i've been in relationship

for 5 whole years

hmmm

selamat ulang tahun

buon compleanno

for my :

dear daddy

may ALLAH BLESS always

much love from us, mom-ai-anggoro

overjoyed

over time, i've been building my castle of love

just for two, though you never knew you were my reason

i've come much too far, for you now to say

that i've got to throw my castle away

over dreams, i have picked out a perfect come true

though you never knew it wasa of you i've been dreaming

the sandman has come from too far away

for you to say come back some other day

and though you don't believe that they do

they do come true

for did my dreams

come true when i look at you

and maybe too, if you would believe

you too might be

overjoyed, over loved, over me

and you're dead

that's what they say. crap.

gak bisa tenang nih.

jadi tegang!

sutralah bo! susah sendiri jadinya.

tapi gmana dong?

can't get it out of my mind. not a single second.

bwalalalalalakakakakakaka [gaya baru tertawa ala elbebih+aibebih tp lebih ke elbebih]

itu knp penjelasannya panjang ye?

apa sih gw jadi aneh gini. ToT

crazy as it is

two more days!

i'm getting nuts!

lalalalalalalalalalala.

i can't sleep and eat properly.

and my heart goes bang bang boom!!

oh GOD please help me.

dudududududududu

not a hundred percent

lagi2 diriku sakit. gak enak bener deh rasanya. mo ngapa2in jadi males. kmaren seharian kerjaan gw cman makan, tidur, makan, tidur, maen komputer. hahahaha gak berguna. tetapi oh tetapi berat saya turun. hebat hebat. haueahueauehuaehau. eh udah bbrp hari gak nulis blog. oh iyeh tadi malem kan gw tidur ama adek gw di kamar bonyok [bonyok sedang pergi ke guam, red] trus gw gak boleh tidur jaoh2. dih penakut. aduh kok ngatain ye. biarin lah. =P

hari ini bonyok pulang! hehehehe. kmaren pas adek gw maen komputer, gw dengerin listening jepang dr buku yg gw pinjem dr bokap. busyet deh malem2 blajar. hahahaha belajar dr awal. ngikutin apa yg orangnya di CD omongin. haduh jadi kangen japanese foundation. tapi bisa gila juga yah kl belajar itu lge. cman gak lebih gila kl belajar japanese advanced sih. jadi sakit perut. aduh GPA GPA. knp sih itu kayak jadi momok setiap insan yg lge berada di universitas. smuanya deh. apalagi bagi orang macam saya. whuah! depresi kl mo nerima GPA.

panik bingung deg2an sakit perut pusing2 mual. udah kayak orang hamil aje dah tuh. cman kurang ngidam aje tuh. ada deng, ngidam nilai bagus. takut nih takut. gmana dong gmana? bawel. udah ah jadi makin pusing kl inget2 GPA. huhuhuhuhuhu.

kmaren pergi ke disney gt ama tisya n temen2 die.. tadinya gw pikir bakal lumayan sepi soalnya kan anak2 sekolah gak libur.. ternyata mengecewakan.. SANGAT!! penuhnya amit2 minta ditendangin smua orang pulang ke rumahnya... antrinya gila2an... permaenan bangsanya space mountain, splash mountain, pooh's hunny hunt antrinya 2 jam lebih.. BUSYET!! tua di antrian itu sih.. trus big thunder mountain TUTUP!! OH MY GOD.. laluuu.. pirates of the carribean juga tutup.. hadooooooh maonya apa sih disney!!!! sebel deh ik....

akhirnya malah naek yg.. yaaaaahhh gt d... hahahahahhaa... nonton show sih lucuuuu... si tisya sepertinya jatuh cintaaaa sama mas ungu.. hahahahahahaha... seneng gt die putu2... emang ganteng sih mas!! ampe tiap ada parade qta deketin.. berharap2 cemas ada mas ungu.. gembel... trus naek mark twain kapal dah pokoknya.. sedih yeee.. bayar mahal2 cman muter2 naek kapal... ke haunted mansion sih.. pake fastpass.. kl enggak mah rugiiii! antri 90 menit cman buat ditakut2in.. ih nehi ye bo! rugi bgt... trus ke buzzlightyear pake fastpass juga... soalnya standby itu antrinya 150 menit.. hahahahahah nunggu lebaran 5 kali baru bisa masuuuk... sediiiiii... harusnya sih ambil fastpassnya buat ke space mountain ama splash mountain yaaaa... tp saya stupid majority... ngikutin kmana arah angin membawa laaah... aheuhauehauehauea....

trus naek apa tour gt.. yg ke luar angkasa.. ya tolooooong... eneg gila! mampus dah... untung gw ga makan banyak.. kl iya udah menggelinding smua tuh makanan di perut gw.. di usus gw.. dimanapun mrk berada alias puke.. ato throw up.. yah apapun dah... ke microadventure seru juga sih mayan.. gw udah siap2 dr awal angkat kaki... gak kuat ama efek2 "tikus"nya.. geli nya ampun deh... cukup sekali waktu itu merasakan dan jantungan.... trus ngeliat ulernya jg cukup sekali.. horror.. depan muka gede bgt... tp orang emang bodoh yah.. mao aje ditipu begituan.. trus abis itu ketawa2... tapi jelas kan saya orangnya easily amused?? hehehehehehehe.. ditipu aje seneng.. gilingan.. tapi.. mrk jg menipu saya cara make kacamata 3Dnya.. knp sih gw gampang ditipu???! huh... au ah.. gak penting...

oh iyah.. td gw nyoba iseng ganti template blog.. trus ancur... tapi.. bibi membantu sayah mengembalikan archives.. trima kasih bibi... mwah mwah!!

kaki gw pegel2.. jalan seharian di disney selaen WOW seneng juga WOW mampus.. capek.. heheheheheheh anyhow, SAYA SENANG... in spite rame nya orang2 ituh!! padahal kan hari sekolah.. hari kerjaa... apa sih kalian??? kami ini yg libur gak dikasih kesempatan seneng2 di disney!! huuuuuuuh awas!! [kok marah??] hehehehehhe yasuuuuud... mo bobo!! oyasumiiii...

for my cutest adorablest greatest bestfriend, menoedh!

hepi birthday, dahrling! wish all the luck.

and hope for the best for you.

have fun to the fullest, girl!

what a b-e-a-utiful day

gw cocok jadi actress

dan berhak dapet

piala oscar

for best actress.

ada yang protes?

.so they say i'm scary.

You Are Scary

You even scare scary people sometimes!

How Scary Are You?

LOL LOL LOL

puzzled

ah hari ini gw nonton happy tree friends lagi.. hisashiburi na.. cman kl ini gw ngajak adek gw nonton.. gara2nya pertama browsing2 di funnyflash trus ada tontonan sebangsa HTF lah.. eh inget lge dah gw lalu mencari websitenya di blog friendsternya si bibi. tp trus error gak tau napa.. disuruh pindah website, ya sudahlah.. yg penting bisa nonton.....

cute, cuddly, and horribly wrong

hahahahaha demen bgt gw ama motto-nya.. mantabh dah! terus terus.. saya masih kecewa sama american idol.. masa ayla ama gedeon yg keluar sih?? gak asik ah.. gak seruuuu.. huuuu padahal kan mrk b2 okeh tuuu.. suaranyaaaaaa okeeeh... knp keluar??? huaaaaa yg si simon kira bakal keluar malah gak keluar [well you know who]... gembeeelll kmana insting kuatmu naaak simoon?? hauehauehaueha sudahlah mo diapain lagi coba yeeey... tak apalaaaah... tapiii teteeeeeppp gak relaaaaaa.. mao ayla ama gedeooon.... [hih]

hari ini rencana mo poto baju tradisional jepang di harajuku gak jadi.. padahal kan lumayan tuh bisa jalan2 dsana cuci muka eh mata.. asal gak menguras dompet sajah.. saya makin miskin iniiiihhh gmana dooong??? padahal udah kagak kmana2... bosen di rumah ampe pengen tiger sprong sendirian... nasib emang dah.. nasib...... liburan enaknya ngapain yaaa?? yg seru tp gak ngabisin duiiiit... waduh tgl 15 ke disney. pasti banyak keluar duiiiiit toloooong.. tapiiiiii saya bersenaaaaaang2... hahahahahahhaha... yes!! gpp lah masuknya lge diskon.. kl perlu bawa makanan dr rumah biar irit... nyeheheheheheheh knp gw jd pelit geeneee yaa??

tau ahhhh jadi makin gak jelaaaas. diriku sudah ngantuuuuuk... laterz!!

kenapa kenapa kenapa???

kmaren gw pergi jalan2 ama emak n teman2nya.. melihat pemandangan kota tokyo yg dingin mampus minta dipukulin.. apa sih!! gw baru sadar kl gw gak punya proper jaket buat cuaca dinginnya tokyo.. smua saya tinggal di beppu. dasar bodoh! well pertama qta ke asakusa liat temple yg emang dr dulu gtu2 aj tp ntah napa wow ramai sekaliiii.. mungkin krn jualan makanan enak hahahahahahaha isinya ang paw eh apa sih itu namanya.. kacang merah dah pokoknya... enak deh... makan 2 lumayanlah nambah lemak -_-'

trus pergi ke harajuku.. woooohooooooo bermerk smua bow! sebut dah apa aj adaaa... terbengong2 begituh liatnyaaaa.... tp tentunya tak mampu membeli.. hanya mampu memandang dr kejauhan.. ngenes geneee.. trus GAP diskon!! tidaaaakk saya harus ksana secepatnyaaaa... wiiihiiiiii asik asik asik!!

tgl 15 nanti mau ke disney ama jeng tisya dan tak tau sapa lagiiii... smoga udah gak begitu dingin... akhirnyaaaaa... mungkin bakal yg terakhir ksini mengingat bentar lge bokap udah balik ke jakartaaa but still i wish masih tetep di tokyo.. hikx hikx.. good news is tentu sajaaa bisa maen2 ke jakartaaa.. belanja2 di tmp muraaaah... huaaaaa jadi gak sabaaaarrr... hahahahahahaha.... trus jalan2 ama tmen2 smu gw... asiiiiik.... ktemuan ama smua deh pokoknyaaaa... yaaah smua hal itu pasti ada sisi baik dan buruk, bukan begitu bukan?? ah sutralah... jgn pusing2 dah...

haduuuh nanti malem ada american idol result dan gw gak sengaja kebaca sapa aj yg udah di voted off!!! bodohnyaaaaaaaaaaa... trus what's the point gt nonton?? tp pengen nonton.. sumpah gw gak rela ama hasilnyaaaaa... tidaaaaaaaak.... terlalu mengecewakaaaan..... huhuhuhuhuhuhu teganyaaaaa..... andaikan saya bisa vote... saya akan vote mereka yg dieleminasi hari ini.... sediiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiihhh... knp harus merekaaa?? gilaaaaaa... yg berpotensiiii begonoooo... jahat!! eh knp jadi marah2 ya?? btw masih ada wild card kan nantinya?? smua masuk lge.. amin amin amin.....

. you tell me .

Your Personality Profile

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive. A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.You are good natured and people enjoy your company.You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

true? now you tell me.

| job-less |

1.Waktu kecil mau jadi apa?- engineer sama dokter hewan

2.Kesampean ngga?- guling2 gw kl jadi kenyataan

3.Pernah ke Paris?- pernah

4.Pernah jatuh dari tangga?- pernah.. dr tangga berjalan.. malu gila

5.Kalo jatuh cinta?- wah belom belom itu

6.Masa lalu yang paling indah buat kamu?- balita

7.Kalo bisa balik ke masa lalu, kamu mau balik kemana?- ke umur balita

8.Pernah putus sama orang yang masih lo sayang?- ngga tu

9.Pernah minum sampe mabuk?- ngga juga tu

10.Pernah dikhianatin orang?- sayangnya pernah

11.Sayang sama orang yang ternyata sayang ama orang lain?- oh jelas

12.Dia tau ga kamu sayang ama dia?- well if he's smart he surely does

13.Kalo bisa ketemu ama 1 orang dari masa lalu, mau ketemu siapa??- dia! yg bikin gw belingsatan akhir2 inih.. kangen kangen kangen!!!!

::Sekarang::

14.Lagi dimana?- rumah

15.Pengen kemana?- dapur

16.Lagi nungguin sesuatu?- not in particular

17.Lagi kangen ngga?- hooh nih

18.Apa yang kamu rasain sekarang?- laper jo!

19.Lagu yang kamu dengerin sekarang?- overjoyed nya stevie wonder

20.Pengen ngobrol ama siapa?- dia!

21.Mau ngomongin apa? - apa ajaaaaa.. saya terlalu kangeeeen...

22.Kira-kira mau call dia ngga abis ini?- orangnya dmana aje gw kagak tau.. mao call kmane? tembok?

23.Dia bakal sms kamu ngga ya hari ini?- sampe dia sms, gw ngesot2 dah [eh jgn d, rugi..]

::Masa depan::

24.Apa yang kamu lakukan besok pagi?- bangun tidur pastinyaa

25.Mau sarapan apa?- liat besok d ye

26. 10 taun lagi kamu bakal seperti apa?- seperti gini d [mayan ngenes]

27.Kamu bakal tinggal dimana?- indonesia aje d.. tp kl ada rezeki mah pengen di jepang.. hohoho.. amin...

28.Siapa kira-kira jodoh kamu?- wuah kurang tau ya.. belom dikasih bocoran si..

29.Kamu bakal punya mobil warna apa?- ijo gonjreng ngarojeng! ngahahahahaha.

30.Bakal punya pasangan orang mana?- indonesia juga d..

31.Nikah pake adat apa?- dr gw yah jawa.. dr sono mah mana ik tauuu..

32.Pengen punya anak berapa?- pengen nya nih? 3 kayaknya seru..

::Kapan::

33.mau menikah?- ASAP [ih napsu] hehehehe ntahlah.. pas dah siap jasmani dan rohani.. dan yg pasti ada calonnya lah yee..

34.terakhir makan di resto?- 2 days ago

35.terakhir ngerasa bingung?- this minute

36.mau ngajak pacar makan malem?- nanti malem d.. tp ngajak pacar yg mana ya? LOL LOL

37.terakhir difoto?- 2 days ago

38.terakhir ketemu calon mertua? - kapan hayoooo...

39.terakhir ngumpul sama temen2 kamu?- sama tmen gw sih jumat kmaren kayaknya.. tp kl tmen2 yah sehari sblm balik ke tokyo..

40.terakhir dapet kado?- awal januari 2006 bow..

:: for my sweetest friend, silvia ::

otanjyoubi omedetou..!! selamat ulang taun sil...!! hepi belated birthday yaaaa..... smoga yg silvi cita2in bisa kecapai.. makin deket sama Tuhan... makin sayang sama keluargaaa, temen2 apalagi saya sayaaah... ngahahahahhahaha... makin pinteeeer.... makin baeeeekkk... makin rajin blajaaar [ayooo sil serius qta sil!!!] pokoknya yaaaaa.. makin yg baek2 deeeee..... kangen ama silvi niiiii gak pernah online d... sombongnyaaaaa.... huhuhuhu... silviiiii dengarkan dirikuuuuu.... hahahaha kasian gini gw.... have a pleasant birthday yaaaaa..... mwah mwah!!!

[ to my beloved dearest bestfriend, rinan ]

happy birthday girl!! otanjyoubi omedetou.. have the most pleasant birthday ever.. may all your dreams would come true and wish all the best for you.. GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS.. luv yaaaa...

- from tokyo with love, ai dong ah-

/ where are you? /

sesungguhnya aku kangen kamu

dimana dirimu, aku ngga ngerti

dengarkanlah, kau tetap terindah

meski tak mungkin bersatu

kau slalu ada di langkahku

4 years ago, the last time we met, i got real excited. we walked side by side and that really meant something to me coz for one more time i could see your face after 2 years. i really missed you. 3 years ago i tried my best so i could meet you in the city you live in but that didn't work. a total disaster. i missed you more. year by year i try to find ways to get in touch with you just to simply say happy birthday and how are you but the result is still the same, zero. and now another year goes by, i still wanna say the same words, happy birthday to you couple days ago but where can i find you? seems like you've gone with the wind, forever. i miss you so, more than ever but i can't find you and it kills me inside so bad. it hurts me more than i know. all i wanna know is where you are now. where are you?

. 25 .

1. The colour that you hate most? used to be pink
2. The colour that you like most? of course green undoubtedly
3. The person that you love most? them
4. The person that you hate most? who keeps lying
5. The drink that you like most? mineral water + caffe latte
6. The activity that you hate most? i dunno why but i always yawn when reading books LOL
7. The past time that you like most? spent new years together with my fams i really miss those
8. The thing that you like most? laptop with episode 19 on it
9. The food that you like most? nasu phew hard to say no to
10. The drink that you hate most? hot drink
11. The past time that you hate most? dont even want to remember
12. The song that you like most? too many to mention
13. The friend that you love most? whuah ada juni, minut, irma, inan, windy, arum, elbeb, mitata, icha, tephen, bunpo, erlyn, silvi, dessy, ichan, ilma, elok, baby, alisha, rey, dessy s, and the rest
14. The movie that you like most? the mighty ducks
15. The friend that you hate most? that person over there =P
16. The movie that you hate most? "cheap" horror movies
17. The friend that you like most to sharing? bibi-kuwh sayang
18. The food that you hate most? macha
19. The song style that you hate most? heavy metal [i cant enjoy it]
20. Type of girlfriend/boyfriend that you like most? type like my tall-handsome-smart-cold-east asian prince charming
21. Type of people that you hate most? did i just answer that? no? i did. person who keep lying
22. Country that you like most? indonesia
23. Friend that you like most to hanging out? in beppu: rokughettoz + jagaricoz, in jakarta: fresh friday
24. Country that you hate most? indonesia i hate you but i love you
25. Friend that you hate most to hanging out? jaim. just leave all you pride behind. LOL. [padahal saya sering jaim. masa????]

the person that i like is you

but what can i do?

you don't like me at all

| akibat kebosanan tingkat tinggi |

1.Orang terakhir yang ditemui? adek saya tercinta yg tiba2 udah molor aje

2.Binatang terakhir yang dilihat? tadi sih sempet ngaca [lah??]

3.Sms terakhir yang diterima? dr emak.. isinya? di, ternyata bpk br turun di tokyo eki. padahal mama udah di SRIT malah suruh nunggu setengah jam

4.Lagu terakhir yang didengar? deftech - my way

5.Buku terakhir yang dibaca? kamus jepang-indonesia, indonesia-jepang

6.Tempat terakhir yang didatangi? rumah tante ndari

7.Hal terakhir yang dilakukan? liat episode 19

8.Barang terakhir yang dibeli? kaos onitsuka tiger! waw!!

9.Orang terakhir yang dipikirin? mereka.. aduuuh andai itu adalah sebuah kenyataan. so sweet you know you know. hahahaha mengganggu..

10.Makanan terakhir yang masuk perut? cumi..

11.Kata terakhir yang keluar dari mulut? "ha??" [seperti biasa kebolotan melanda]

12.Hal terakhir yang dilihat? screen laptop pastinya..

13.Hal terakhir yang jadi pikiran? mereka lucu sekali berdua.. senang!!

14.Telepon terakhir ke.. bokap..

15.Telepon terakhir dari.. tmen emak org jepang ntuh..

16.Mimpi terakhir tentang.. kayaknya sih ttg episode 19 deh.. gile ampe kebawa mimpi.. hebat hebat..

17.Cita-cita terakhir... berhasil lulus dr APU sebagai seseorang yg berguna..

18.Lirik lagu terakhir yang dinyanyiin.. deftech - my way

19.Gosip terakhir yang didenger tentang...kehamilan mayangsari.. bwahahahahaha.. maklum ada tabloid nganggur..

20.Testi terakhir dari.. wumzie paus chillique!!

21.E-mail terakhir dari.. friendster dan email2 spam lainnya.. gak penting!

22.Chat terakhir dengan.. alief, sepupu paling kurang ajar yg pernah ada.. hauehuaheua becanda lah diriku ini.. alief, cai yo!!

23.Chat terakhir ngomongin tentang? dia minta didoain ttg sesuatu [akupun tak tahu itu apa]

24.Pacaran terakhir sama..? christian bautista [buset ngarep!] bwahahahahaha..

25.Jatuh cinta terakhir sama? apakah yg saya rasakan itu cinta?

26.Terakhir marah sama..? yg bikin onitsuka tiger.. knp jaket yg gw mao mahal sekali.. kenapa??? hik tak terbeli..

27.Film terakhir yang ditonton? drama termasuk ga? anu.. it started with a kiss..

28.Berita terakhir yang didengar? yah itu.. mayangsari hamil 7 bulan..

29.Pelajaran terakhir yang diingat? tiba2 gw terserang penyakit short term memory lost..

30.Orang terakhir yang ada di mimpi? si dia.. cih! sape?? mereka lagi.. gila2an otak gw lge dipenuhin ama mereka!! sadis!!

can you hear?

the call of yearning has spread to every street

no matter how far you walk

when you're tired and turn back

i'll be right beside you

[ best thing ]

episode 19 was the best thing that happened to me yesterday. ah! senangnya! actually sampe skrg pun masih jadi best thing! the sweetest thing. bwahahahahahaha. seumur2 itu adalah episode yg gak akan pernah bikin saya bosaaaaaaaaaan. walopun episodenya udah selese, finish, tamat apapun itu namanya tp tetep, episode 19 gw liat berkali2 dan berulang2 dan masih pengen gw liat.. ampe malem ajee masih kebayang.. hahahahaha norak ah! GOD it's just too good. LOL. aih romantis! too romantic. duh. ntar gw dibilang mellow lge ame sepupu gw. dah ah. mwaaaaaaah! tak sabar aku! 2007, mengapa engkau lama sekali datangnya? matteiru yooo... ayo, ai! cai yo! =P

note: the sparkle has gone! ToT

[ firsts and lasts ]

...EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRST...

1. First real best friends: ratih, putty, and ilma.

2. First school: tk yasporbi.

3. First screenname: pank_ponk84cool.

4. First cell phone: the old erricson.

5. First funeral: my grandma.

6. My First pet: rabbits.

7. First big trip: tokyo when i was 8 years old i guess.

8. First flight: forgot. hehehehe.

9. First celebrity love: vincent a larusso. love him so much!

10. First job: translator [well not professional tho']

11. First Friendster friend: Rae.

...EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS...

1. Last person you hugged: my dad.

2. Last song you heard: ace young - father figure.

3. Last car ride: wow! long time ago.

4. Last time you cried: weeks ago when i watched 1 litre of tears. that title is something.

5. Last movie you watched: pretty cool.

6. Last food you ate: yogurt strawberry.

7. Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to: my annoying lil bro.

8. Last item bought: train ticket. yesterday.

9. Last shirt worn: white t'shirt i'm wearing.

10. Last phone call: my dad. hours ago.

11. Last text message: wumzie. miss you much!!

12. Last thing you touched: keypads.

13. Last Funeral: my grandma.

14. Last time at the mall : funny. really don't remember.

15. Last time you were excited about something: last night.

16. Last person you saw: my mom.

17. Last thing you typed: . [dot. LOL]

18. Last Person that broke your heart: hmmmm. last guy that made me cry.

19. Last time you've been happy: last night when i found out that david's still on american idol. =D

20. Last Kiss: how about first kiss? hehehehehe.

| hik hik |

hari ini gw bener2 terkapar di tmp tidur.. tadi malem idung gw gak bisa buat napas sama sekali alias pilek berat ampun2an.. tolong! trus tadi pagi joget2 dikerok.. sakit men! minum obat daaan... tidur lagi! hahahahaha mengkebo dah gw.. emak bapak adek gw pegi keluar dan gw tidur ampe jam 2.. gila2an deh kebo-nya.. bisa bgt gak kebangun ampe jam segtu.. gw jg bingung knp gw bisa tiba2 flu.. yah selama ini sih emang pilek cman itu udah jadi penyakit seumur idup gw dan gw gak anggep serius [i know that's totally wrong but....] tp beneran hari ini i can't take it.. i have a fever, also.. maa ii yaaa.. skrg alhamdullilah udah baekan.. yah harusnya emang begitu berhubung udah tidur lebih dr setengah hari..

oh iyeh td malem [sebelom sakit] gw nonton american idol the top 24 results show di internet.. membego sendiri.. teriak2 sendiri.. deg2an sendiri.. smuanya sendiri deh.. favourite gw david masih selamat! tapi gw gak yakin minggu depan dia bakal selamat mengingat suaranya agak2 horror dikit n not that great tp saya masih mendukungmu! walopun gak nge-vote.. hehehehehe.. trus ace susahlah yaaa.. hahahaha suaranya cihuy bener! mukanya jg uhuy.. mantabh abis dah.. paris, lisa, mandisa and katharine pastilah safe.. yah gw tau sih gak akan ada yg bisa selamat 100% but at least they've voices.. n mrk jg gak neko2 kl gw liat selama ini [hahahahaha gile gaya!] gw rasa mrk bisa selamat sampe final 12 girls yey.. kl yg cowok... hmmmm elliott pastinya.. ace no doubt lah ya [pd bener gw].. kevin jg kayaknya diem2 menghanyutkan tuuu [kayak gw dooong.. tenang suka hanyut] yg agak2 bahaya sih kayaknya david n gedeon.. tp yah ntahlah... acara beginian mana bisa diduga sih.. tiba2 yg harusnya go to the next round malah gugur.. trus yg suaranya nge-pas malah jadi juara.. busyet! pokoknya i'm looking forward to seeing next episodes..

hmmm.. knp yah akhir2 ini gw sering mimpi buruk.. sedih deh.. padahal udah doa sebelom tidur.. hik hik.. kan bangun2 jd stress.. they felt soo real and that's why it seemed soo scary.. end of talking this.. btw.. mulai semester depan gw mo menerapkan sesuatu [apa sih tuh istilahnya] yg baru.. irit!! hahahahaha i know kedengerannya basi bgt tp yah moga2 aj berhasil.. selama ini udah nabung tp yah ntah napa lama2 abis juga.. gubrag! jadi... kurangin jajan [di famima especially] selaen hemat kan jd gak ngemil.. hehehehe.. trus kurangin jalan2 ke beppu kek, oita apalagi.. pasti kan bakal ngabisin banyak duit tuh.. trus kan pasti makan juga tuh.. hehehehe.. laluuu.. masak.. ini yg paling berat deh.. al least weekend lah masak, soalnya kl weekdays gw gak yakin bakal bisa.. malah gw yakin gak bakal bisa.. jikan nya susah buat gw.. hohohohoho.. trus semester depan gw harus lebih rajin belajar nih... ayooo bisa bisa!!! oh iyah! kurangin minjem dvd juga.. sangatlah buang2 uang.. hehehehehehe..

. new semester new me [let's hope for the best] .

. i feel stupid .

i've been thinking what i've done lately and i feel totally stupid.. "knp gw bisa gtu??" "ih! kok gw bego bgt sih!!" and all that stuffs. ah! emang dasar manusia, penyeselan selalu datang terlambat, bukan begitu bukan? memaaaang [arum's style] hehehehehe. oh iyeh kmaren gw nge-gym [ketawa gw garuk loh!] trus dengan segala kekuatan yg ada gw treadmill [catet: jalan doang. saya adalah manusia pembenci lari] trus make alat2 yg ada dsana dah pokoknya ampe eneg.. laluu pas mo pulang, eh tiba2 ada lekong cucok!! whuaaah dia lge lari di treadmill.. sayangnya yah gw udah selese.. mo pulang.. huuuuu hidup emang gak adil..

hari ini sebenernya pengen ke gym juga mengingat gw udah daftar yg artinya udah bayar, cman rasa malas lge menyergap.. jadinya cman sepedahan aje deh.. besok! yosh! hilangkan kemalasan! oh, bbrp hari yg lalu gw lge makan ama emak trus tiba2 nyokap cerita sesuatu.. pas waktu itu ke jkt, nyokap dateng ke acara apa gtu [sangatlah informative, bukan? hehehe] trus tamunya itu seseorang yg pernah mati suri.. dia cerita pengalaman selama dia mati suri.. dia di bawa ke neraka trus ngeliat orang2 yg lge disiksa dsana.. dan mulailah cerita nyokap ttg itu yg ngebuat gw mati rasa ngediemin makanan depan gw.. nyokap bener2 berhasil ngilangin napsu makan saya [apa harusnya nyokap cerita kyk gtu terus yah biar gw kurus?]

jadi begini.. ada orang yang mulutnya dimonyongin trus dipotong dan itu terus2an.. itu katanya dulu sewaktu masih hidup suka selingkuh.. dan cerita2 laennya.. na'uzubillah.. serem bener dengernya.. innalillahii.. serem serem... terus.. dah ah.. yg laen aj deh omongannya... i'm way too scared.. eh tp bukan berarti gw suka selingkuh trus jadi takut loh! mo selingkuh ama sape coba? christian bautista? oh with my pleasure... LOL! just kidding anywayz.. eh btw ada album baru nya yah? aih saya mao dong.. anyone? ada yg berbaik hati mao beliin gw? nyehehehehehehe... aduh bosen! pengen jalan2 tp sayang duit.. pengen jalan2 tp gak ada temen.. pengen jalan2 tapi tapi banyak tapinya.. di rumah doang jadinya begini.. bosan tidak tertolong lagi.. any any dah ah mo maen aje! dadaaaaaaaah.. pahaaaaaaaaa..... kupiiiiiing... cup cup..!!

/ jomblo /

ini bukan mo bikin blog tentang curhatan hati seorang jomblo kok.. bener deh.. tapi gw lge pengen bgt bgt bgt nonton JOMBLO... O EM JI DRAGON.. knp sih gak dipasang di jepang gtu pelemnyaaa?? yah kl dipasang juga saya teh bakal terbengong2 sambil [atau sampai??] terkentut2 ngeliatnya.. apa sih belebih.. mana bibi pake ngomong2 udah nonton 2 kalii pulaa.. kasih kesempatan buat diriku ngapa bi sekali doang.. kamu mah.. saya kan juga mao.. abis bukunya bikin gw ngakak guling2an sih.. jadi kan penasaran gtu ama pelemnya.. trus katanya christian ganteng.. aiiih kalo christian bautista sih emang ganteng jo! [eh bukan dia ya yg maen?]

jomblooooo... jombloooo.... tolooooong... [sekali lagi saudara, bukan curhatan hati] awalnya sih takut juga kalo ternyata filmnya mengecewakan.. tapi setelah mendengar pendapat teman teman saya tercinta di jakarta itu ternyata filmnya sangatlah lucu dan menarik hati para cecunguk yg nonton itu.. [excuse my language, miss!] kacruuuuut... ajaklah diriku ini nonton.. temanmu ini kesepian dsini.. tiap hari kerjaannya cuman begini2 aj [ini baru namanya curhat] gak ada kemajuan.. yg ada kemunduran sosial.. dapat terlihat dr isi blog yg amat tidak berguna ini.. btw mo cerita kejadian dr sabtu minggu dan hari ini, senin..

sabtu.. lupa ngapain.. ya udah lah cerita minggu aje ye.. eh lupa lagih.. senen dah senen.. hari ini diajak emak ke dokter gigi tapi saya menolak dengan sushi [mentah maxudnya] gak galak loh tapi nolaknya.. jadi gak ada namanya perang dunia antara ibu dan anak.. trus di rumah yah gtu deh.. nonton.. trus sepedahan.. trus mandi.. lalu begini dan begitu.. oh iyah insya ALLAH juli pulang ke indonesia.. berhubung bapak udah selese tugas dsini jadinya skrg tiap liburan bakal balik ke indo terus! yay! [ada yg protes??] lalu kami sekeluarga akan pindah rumah.. masih gak tau kmana.. [kok kedengerennya kayak homeless ya?] yah kl gak ksitu yah dsitu.. pokoknya salah satu.. moga2 lancar2 aje yeeee... btw ternyata lebih enak nulis blog pake bhs indo.. hehehehehe.. lebih lancar dah ceritanya.. banyak kan niii udah 3 paragraf ajeee...

btw [eh paragraf ke4 deh..] kok tmen2 gw gak ada yg online yaaa... hik hik kan pengen ngobrol.. gw gak bisa online pagi dan siang dikarenakan ini adalah HM ayah saya.. jadi yah mau gak mau [harus mau!] dibawa ke kantor setiap pagi kecuali sabtu dan minggu dikarenakan pada hari2 tersebut libur dikarenakan.. [HUSH!] dsini bapak saya sedang tertawa2 dikarenakan [again???] dorifu, komedi jadulnya jepang.. lucu sih emang walopun kagak ngarti bahasanya.. buktinya bokap bisa tertawa2 riang.. oh iyah td malem nonton alien vs pedophil eh predator.. hiiiii sumpah jijay bin bajay.. untung gw nonton gak pake kacamata.. jijay jijay.. ampe adek gw tidur jam setengah 12 padahal besoknya sekolah.. dasar gembel! ah udah ah capek.. wow ternyata barusan saya menceritakan kejadian hari minggu.. wow! ingat! hehehehehe dah ah.. mwah mwah!!

. hanya saya dan komputer tercintah yang selalu setia menemani kesendirianku .

[la la la]

i'm bored to death. help help help heeeelp. hehehehe. hmmm and also anxious. yosh! what's done is done. new semester new will! oh yeah!i'm ready. new semester. i'm ready. la la la la.

. start dancing and you'll smile .

i finished watching 3 dorama in a week i guess [kimi wa petto. 1 litre of tears. hana yori dango]. and i noticed from the 3 of them, someone gives cellphone. in kimi wa petto, the master gives the "dog" cellphone. in 1 litre of tears, the mother gives her daughter. and in hana yori dango, domyouji gives makino cellphone. that's the result when you got nothing to do. totally bored. no one to play to.

btw i know how it feels to be in american idol with simon, paula, and randy for the judges and go to the next round. i got this "accident" yesterday. i thought i lost my passport. for me ryuugakusei, it is the most daijina mono of course. i searched everywhere but it was nowhere to found. then at night i prayed and i prayed and i prayed but still no clue. the next morning i didn't give up. i searched in my parents' room and searched and searched and i found it! I WAS SO GLAD. thank GOD i found it. then i felt like "wow. the judges like me." lol. okay it's just me being hiperbola but i don't care. i'm still happy til now.

these days i don't know why but i like watching pinoy idol in youtube. hahahahaha guess i need something "new" now. well i do still like watching american idol tho'. right now i really feel like going to campus and studying. i need to use my brain properly. lol. what should i do anyway? du du du du du du la la la la la la.

. come on it's party time start dancing and you'll smile .

| music of my heart |

in my life i know i'll never be alone coz i've got my friends. i've got someone. i know for always someone's watching over me. and you've got a friend in me. for good times and bad times. when you laugh, i'll laugh with you. when you're feeling down, you can cry on my shoulder. because you are my truly friend. i cherish every moment, every second i spend with you. hari-hari bersamamu is anugrah terindah yang pernah kumiliki. i'll treasure everything about you. i'll draw picture of you inside my mind. when you need me, i'll be there for i know when i need you, you'll do the same. remember the times when we struggle with school, when we struggle against our own ego. we did, right? because we are the world's greatest. they say when you wish upon a star, your dreams come true. is that true? i know your dreams come true when you believe. we have unforgetable moments, undescribable story of our lives. we laugh, we cry, we sing, we do everything together. i won't forget all these moments so ingatlah hari ini. the days we have now because there is no turning back, i believe. our future awaits us. it won't be long til our graduation day and when that time comes, just don't say goodbye as you know it's not the end. it is just the beginning, a whole new beginning for us. everything will be different then. but there is one thing will still remain, kimi wa tomodachi. that won't change. i'll be there for you just the same as the present. remember me this way, the way i remember just the way you are. you are my friend.

. . . zutto ikite . . .

hontou. atashi ga kono you na dorama wo hajimete mita, ichi ritoru no namida. eigo de '1 litre of tears'. saisho wa futsuu no kanashii dorama mitai to omotta. demo ne, zenzen chigatta. doko ka chigau tokoro wakannai kedo, nanka chigau. ehem. kore kara eigo de kaku. i heard about this dorama from my cousin. when he told me about it, i just thought "aaaahhh.. another sad story ne!" i wasn't that interested because i was watching dorama 'Kimi Wa Petto' and it's so freaking funny. then as i finished watching kimi wa petto, the next day i was thinking of watching this series. and i began. big mistake?

1st episode was fine. it was starting to be a sad story but i could handle it tho'. as i watched another episodes, tissue became my loyal "friend". douzo laugh, call me being too sentimentil or a cry-baby but i cried. hehehehe. okay the story is basically about a 15 year-old girl suffered from incurable disease. sounds like the story-next-door? i know. maybe 1 thing that makes this series special is the 'based on true story' thingy. we can really feel her happiness when she was accepted in high ranking high school and met her crush in junior high school. we can feel her anxiety when she knew something was wrong inside her body. we can see how she struggled alone. how the eyes kept staring when she walked strangely.

i cried before when i watched sad movies but i never cried this much and it was tiring to finish all episodes. right from the moment she was a normal girl until she couldn't walk, couldn't talk, couldn't write and even couldn't swallow properly. taihen da! but luckily she got her family. her friends. and her [what should i call him] boy friend? she got this diary she wrote everyday and some of her phrases are catchy. for instance "okaasan, kono byouki wa nande atashi wo eranda?" is it fate? coz it's unfair. it makes me think how ungrateful people, including me, of their health. smokes, drugs, beers, suicidal, what are these for anyway? we are lucky and we should aware of that. we're not thanking GOD enough.

then "okaasan, atashi wa kekkon dekiru?" . future. it makes me think again how married people, excluding me hehehe, ungrateful with their marriage life. i know humans are greedy. that's what he said in one of the episodes. that's natural, right? but sometimes it's just too much. funny isn't it? how person's life can be totally different from others. that's life anyway. when some people are struggling with their lives, trying to keep on living, some others are ruining it, trying to stop it. gosh. that's totally life.

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i wonder, atashi ga nani ka dekiru kanaaa ~~

:: FRESH FRIDAY ::

this time i shall introduce my valuable vegetables to you. just call us 'fresh friday'. i don't know when and how we got this name but surely i luv it and unquestionably i luv them all.

juni a.k.a lou is the fairiest of all. lol. she has fair skin that's why we call her lou from lobak or turnip in english. she's calm even sometimes can be retarded, too. wanna please her? WoW is an excellent option. her sleepy attitude during the class can tickles you.

menoedh's a.k.a tom's face can turn red when she feel embarrassed thus we call her tomato. she's tough yet sensitive. can't say no to linkin park, n sync, and anime especially kenshin and fruit basket. don't be surprise when she sends you an sms but actually it's not for you. that's her.

irma a.k.a lee will make you laugh with her 'one-sided' things that she does. maybe she's the craziest among us but also the most creative vegetable i've ever known in my whole life. she's the one who got an idea to earn money.

simply call them splendid. wonderful. terrific. i truly will cherish them. my amazing vegetables.

| to love and not to love |

have you ever loved someone so much that you would die for him/her? how does it feel when the one you love does not love you back? it hurts.

how about vice-versa? someone loves you so much that he/she would die for you but you don't love him/her back. it hurts as well. am i right? i know how it feels. how it feels when he walks through me and takes my breath away but i can do nothing about it. how it feels when he sees me and i see him and that's it. how it feels to see him right through his very eyes but knowing the fact that they're not mine [oh crap!]. here's a good quote i got from some website: love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning. true. maybe it's not yet the right time but i'm sure somewhere somehow there is one perfect person for every one. remember, GOD creates every human being with a partner. and what is the difference between love and like? in front of the person you love, your heart beats faster. but in front of the person you like, you get happy. i know i like them and i want to be with them in good times and in bad times. but i love him and i want him to be happy no matter what. i love his good sides and even his bad sides.

sometimes it hurts when you know the truth that he does not feel they way that i do. but then i think again. what if we are in the same position? he loves someone but she does not. then we're even. and i think again. it is good loving someone because to love is not to receive but to give. and it is also good being in love. maybe not by him. but the love from family. bestfriends. friends. by anyone under the sun. because you know they love you. then i don't worry anymore about loving someone who does not love me back. and last but not least simply because love will not hurt you. if it hurts you then it is NOT love.

. just me who being sentimentil because of love [lol] .

[you know you've been in japan too long when]

...you answer "hai!" even when speaking English to non-Japanese friends.

..."Ohio" no longer means the state.

...you can name all the members of SMAP.

...your noodle slurping can rattle the windows next door.

...you can fall asleep on the train and wake up at your stop.

...you know your birthdate by the Japanese imperial calendar.

...you can't remember saying 6 bucks was too much to see a movie.

...you can recognize your stop when the train announcer says it.

...you can recognize anything besides your stop when the train announcer says it.

...you walk into a room with chairs and choose to sit on the floor.

...you believe no party is complete without a trip to the karaoke box.

...you answer the phone and freeze in indecision between saying "hello" or "moshi moshi."

...you choose "moshi moshi."

...you mutter "yoshi!" when lifting heavy objects.

...at 5'4"....you feel tall!

...you can buy a train ticket anywhere in under 30 seconds.

\ addicted to \

You might be addicted to Mafia Boss when:

1. You wake up sweating from a nightmare and all you can remember from it is that your defeenses got wiped out and they stole your planes.

2. You measure how long you slept by how many turns you have accumulated

3. Your signifigant other hates the game, not because of the game but because you only have one computer and they cn't play.

4. You run back to your office after a meeting and cuss out your boss because he made you miss that $45million attack and now that mafioso has defenses again.

5. You check your family board every time a message pops up but can't remember the last time you checked your email.

6. You know the allies and enemies of other families without having to double check.

7. You have asked Ringmistress out, fully knowing she is 1000 miles from you. (So when ya gonna come see me Mistress?)

8. You can judge accurately how much money a supporter has spent by how many operatives he/she has.

9. You miss a free movie with friends because your family is at war and youre worried you might get attacked.

10. You completely understand the algorithms involved in the game and can accurately predict the outcome of an attack before you commit to it.

. tokyo .

it's holiday time and holiday time equals to diet time. LOL. my mom really supports me. hahahahaha i know i know. i should've done it long time ago. but i dunno why i think i must do it properly this time [blushing]. hope i REALLY do it tho'.

oh yeah before i went back to tokyo my friends and i went to karaoke [again] but this time was girls' night out! yay! only me. inan. windy. and arum. then elbebih called me. she was with vidya rama dana. 2 hours of singing [oh no. don't think about my voice. it's horrible.] was enough for me. so vidya rama and i decided to go home early whilst arum inan elbebih dana continued. windy had already gone home because she was still had long trip to take. hehehehehe. before went straight home, we went to Boo rental to return dvds that we [mitata. arum. inan. me] borrowed. and they charged me 3000 yen for late returning. d'oh! bimbo ni natta ne! hehehehehe. then the 3 of us [vidya rama me] went to my home for little chat and chocolate royce. actually it wasn't chat but more like made fun of something. hehehehehe. not gonna say it here. will be offense for some people.

the next morning, i had to get up early to catch a bus to oita airport. but still i was late for about 5 minutes coz i saw the bus running in front of my face. damn! then i have to wait for about 30 minutes. huhuhuhuhu so damn cold. i received an email from inan. she said something about someone. okay i was embarrased. still wished what she said was true. HAHAHAHAHAHA [blushing] what am i talking about anyway?? and now i'm sitting here. feeling happy for holiday yet anxious since i still haven't got my newest grades. hope i'm doing good this time. at least better than before.

oh my GOD i'm already missing my friends [and someone hohoho]. still long time to spend before school starts. huhuhuhuhuhu. oh well gonna enjoy myself here. yosh! ganbare for the holiday! new semester new me! arum. mitata. GANBAREEEE! LOL. hehehehehehehe.

~ graduation ~

what is the most interesting about graduation party? is it the "atmosphere" of togetherness? or is it because of food? maybe yes. maybe no. we just had graduation party for seniors in Spa Beach Matogahama Koen. well it was not just about graduation but also farewell party for exchange students [in spite of the fact that none of them was there, oh there was one person, wim, and actually he is not an exchange student] and for APUIna's website launching. and for giving the "Sayembara Logo" winner the presents as well.

we really had a great time. or at least i had great time. especially for the games. ah well even though we didn't win but it doesn't matter, does it? give a big applause for ima and erlyn. and there was FOOD! ah everyone's favourite. undoubtedly oishikatta! of course! coz it was from Bu Lita. thank you soo much Bu Lita. actually thank you very very much guys for coming today. we had good time, didn't we? and then... we went to karaoke. that was something. hehehehehehehe in short once again. i had fun. after the crazy exams week. woo hoo. and it's time to go home. go back meeting my parents. and my lil brother. really really miss them lots. just few more days. hehehehehehehe.

yesterday inan. mitata. windy. and me watched youtube.com. the next of american idol. LOL. it reallt tickled me. and i wonder. some twins participated. and most of them [maybe all] got really nice voices. lucky for them they both got it. just bring it on, guys. hehehehehehehe. actually i need to get some action to clean up my room but i'm still too lazy. maybe tomorrow i'll start it. maybe just maybe. well guys i gtg now. gotta check this dvd i borrowed from my friend. hehehehehe corpse bride. go on laugh but i don't give a damn. hehehehehe. cya~~~!

/ sway /

Ah!
Ooo!
Ah!
Do,do,do,do,do,do
Do,do,do,do.

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor (Be on the floor...)
Dear, but my eyes will see only you (See only you...)
Only you have that (Oooo...) magic technique.
When we sway I go weak (I go so weak)

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins (It begins...)
Make me thrill as only you know how (You know how...)
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Ah!
Mi amor.
Sway me, make me (Hey yeah.)
Thrill me, hold me (Hold...)
Bend me, ease me
You have a way with me (Me...!)

Hey yea.
Sway Me.
Ooo!
Sway,sway,sway...

Ba ba ba da da, Ba ba ba da da, Ba ba da da,
Ba ba ba da da, Ba ba ba da da, ba da ba da ba.

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how (You know how...)
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Make me thrill as only you know how (Come and sway me)

Sway me smooth (Ah!), sway me now (Come and sway me baby come and sway me)
Make me thrill as only you know how (Ah!)
Sway me smooth (Uh huh, uh huh), sway me now

Sway me
Sway me
Sway me now

[ kimatsu shiken ]

counting down. next week we're having final exam or in japanese, kimatsu shiken [desyou? hehehe] i can see the faces. faces of fear and worried and stressed. coz maybe i have it too in my own face. today i had 3 classes. management accounting. japanese. seminar accounting. [gosh, i've had enough of accounting] the most interesting class was japanese. nazenara, coz we had JLPT. japanese language proficiency test. it's like TOEFL for english. and why it was interesting? BECAUSE without looking properly to the questions, i could answer them all. okay it's not joking i couldn't do it. hehehehe well guess lots of my friends couldn't do it either. except the ones who are taking japanese base and STILL taking japanese courses. i know. lots of reasons as well. i heard from inan that one of her classmates is taking this japanese class for improving his kanji. d'OH! hehehehehe yeah well. we're different i know. some of them are half japanese. and some of them have been learning japanese for years. no wonder, huh?? but korekara i MUST ganbarou as well! YOSH!

and today in seminar class we talked about live door. and the professor told us about his "astonishing" experience with the japan police. he's so damn funny. okay maybe he looks scary. i had that first impression also. but since i take his seminar class, i know that he's okay. even he's the best accounting teacher in my university. [from the fact that we only have 2 accounting teachers and the other one is..... i dunno how to say it. so let's just shut up for now hehehe] it's not just my subjective point of view. ask my friends. most of them [maybe all of them] think the same, too. i think the other prof and us, the students, should learn accounting together with my seminar class' prof. well okay enough story about classes, especially accounting.

oh about japanese class, i'm SO afraid of failing the class. oh GOD. really. i'm the stupidest in my class. [crying] i'm not lying coz i'm sure of that. no matter how hard i study, i just don't fit in. and now i just can ganbarou in my interview and final exam. [FYI, the final exam will be a lecture in japanese and later we have to answer questions] do you realize how many "answer" and "questions" words i already used just now? what's up with them anyway? ah well. it's time to take a bath and then sleep, oh i mean study. study HARD! wish me luck. and wish you good luck. mwah!!!

. . tanda - tanda obesitas . .

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SEBELAS RAMBU KUNING BERAT BADAN

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1. Jika Anda sudah menikah dan cincin pernikahan mulai sulit dilepaskan dari jari manis Anda.
2. Saat tujuh belas Agustusan, Anda menjadi peserta yang dicari-cari untuk bagian paling belakang di perlombaan tarik tambang antar RT.
3. Teman kerja Anda mulai menyarankan agar Anda menggunakan tangga, dan bukan lift.
4. Sepatu Anda kekecilan semua dan Nike Air Anda kempes.
5. Setiap Anda naik angkutan umum, kenek meminta ongkos untuk dua orang.
6. Anda harus jongkok dan mengambil ancang-ancang dulu sebelum melompat.
7. Saat Anda mencoba timbangan koin elektronis, ia berkata agar naik ketimbangannya satu-satu, jangan duaan atau lebih.
8. Setiap Anda melompat masuk kolam renang, terjadi ombak lokal yang cukup dahsyat.
9. Anda terpaksa beli ikat pinggang baru karena kehabisan tempat untuk bikin lubang lagi.
10.Satu-satunya cara agar Anda bisa menghemat biaya makan di luar adalah dengan mendatangi restoran all- you-can-eat.
11.Dokter internis Anda menyarankan untuk menurunkan berat badan, demi kesehatan Anda.

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SEBELAS RAMBU MERAH BERAT BADAN

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1. Cincin pernikahan sudah tak bisa dilepaskan dari jari kelingking Anda, kecuali dengan las atau amputasi.
2. Begitu mengetahui Anda juga mengikuti lomba makan kerupuk, semua peserta lain mengundurkan diri.
3. Alarm lift yang Anda naiki protes keberatan, padahal Anda sendirian.
4. Anda lupa nomor sepatu Anda karena sudah lebih dari setahun tidak bisa melihat kaki sendiri. Anda bahkan tidak yakin sudah mengenakan sepatu atau belum.
5. Saat Anda bergerak menuju angkutan umum kosong yang sedang ngetem, mobilnya malah kabur.
6. Setiap Anda mengambil ancang-ancang mau melompat, semua orang di sekitar langsung tiarap.
7. Saat Anda mencoba timbangan koin elektronis, uang Anda dimuntahkan.
8. Pengurus kolam renang langganan Anda menyesuaikan jadwal menguras kolam dengan kedatangan Anda.
9. Penjual ikat pinggang mulai menawarkan tali tambang.
10.Anda mau memasuki restoran all-you-can-eat dan tempatnya langsung tutup.
11.Bahkan dokter Anda pun menyarankan untuk menurunkan berat badan, demi keselamatan dunia.

| extraordinary |

how does it feel to be extraordinary? nice, eh? that's what i think. that's what i think when i watch X-Men, Fantastic Four, and recently The League of the Extraordinary Gentlemen. having superpower might be cool, i guess but yeah well i'm not quite sure about that coz i'm just a normal girl who spends her life normally. hehehehe. it's already 14:20 and i'm still here. throwing my life away. killing time. wasting time. you name it.

oh btw, recently i play the game online www.themafiaboss.com god it's totally cool. you're playing the boss of the mafia gang n trying to be the best. you've got whores, bodyguards, thugs, card dealers, and so on. spending your money on alcohol, weed, coke, guns, cars [S Limo for God's sake] and the most interesting part is your own jet and planes! hahahaha what a life! you also can attact other mafiosos and steal their stuffs. but then. i got frozen. they said i was cheating of having 2 accounts. LOL. i only have 1 ya know. the heck. then i lost my "appetite" in playing that game. hope it'll end soon coz i had so much fun back then.very well my friends. i gotta go now. kinda feeling hungry. so long. mwah~~

. . . once upon a time . . .

in a small town called beppu. never heard of it? neither did i. until i decided to spend my next 4 years in a international campus in the middle of nowhere. why nowhere? because it is in the top of the mountain. i mean for real. literally. i was shocked. and maybe my friends felt the same like i did. exactly the same. no life. hell boring. yeah i know the feeling. i was like a little brat who lost her way in a whole new world. but then... i met them, the ones who i call friends who soon became my bestfriends. with them i can laugh. i can cry. i can be myself. oasis in the desert. that's what i call them. i admit i need them to be my friends. in good times. in bad times. all the times. and then again... i realize...

my time here slowly passed away. in 2 year-time (amin) i will graduate. and sadly, i will separate with them. i know sooner or later that is gonna happen but i didn't realize it's gonna end so soon. our time together. gosh, how much i will miss you guys a lot. i know it's not like we're gonna be gone forever but still... we've been spending our times together almost 24/7 and that meant a lot. to me. sooner i will have to face a new world (again) by myself. starting from zero again. meet new people. well there is "hello" and there is "goodbye". that's life mi amigos. agree? this post i dedicate to all my friends, especially my bestbudds whom i know my whole life. you guys are the best. really really love you all! mwah! hehehehehehehe. mata aimasyou ne! (ok. it's for my friends outside japan. hehehehehe.)

. joyful . joyful .

today is sunday. what should i be doing at this very moment? yea right. doing my attractive japanezy report. crap. instead i am writing this useless yet interesting bullshit blog. more crap. bored to death. yes i am. hungry? say no more. but still there is one little thing that keeps me happy this morning. just got shoes that i've been craving since, well, not quite long time ago but the sensation of making them mine was really, you can say, enjoyable. LOL.

oh btw, last night, my girls and i [don't have to mention the names over again rite?] watched movies again. and again. and again. and still the ghiblis are on the line. we watched kill bill 2 and somewhere on the movie something was mentioned, it was 'bout an old man who liked young girls. then my girls kept on making fun of me of being pedophil. yea yea go on laugh at me. but hey it's not my fault. it's not like he's 10 years younger than me. and by the way, he's smart. he's gorgeous. and i think i'm gonna throw up right about now. LOL. guess i'm making fool of myself, eh? yet i thank GOD i still know the feeling of love. to be in love. well well well i did it again.what's up with me today??? too much dramas. should stop! oh well gotta go watch some more of ghiblis. it's haunting me. i'm addictive. damn. until next time.