Saturday, February 25, 2006
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
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Monday, February 20, 2006
. hanya saya dan komputer tercintah yang selalu setia menemani kesendirianku .
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Friday, February 17, 2006
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Thursday, February 16, 2006
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Monday, February 13, 2006
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hontou. atashi ga kono you na dorama wo hajimete mita, ichi ritoru no namida. eigo de '1 litre of tears'. saisho wa futsuu no kanashii dorama mitai to omotta. demo ne, zenzen chigatta. doko ka chigau tokoro wakannai kedo, nanka chigau. ehem. kore kara eigo de kaku. i heard about this dorama from my cousin. when he told me about it, i just thought "aaaahhh.. another sad story ne!" i wasn't that interested because i was watching dorama 'Kimi Wa Petto' and it's so freaking funny. then as i finished watching kimi wa petto, the next day i was thinking of watching this series. and i began. big mistake?
1st episode was fine. it was starting to be a sad story but i could handle it tho'. as i watched another episodes, tissue became my loyal "friend". douzo laugh, call me being too sentimentil or a cry-baby but i cried. hehehehe. okay the story is basically about a 15 year-old girl suffered from incurable disease. sounds like the story-next-door? i know. maybe 1 thing that makes this series special is the 'based on true story' thingy. we can really feel her happiness when she was accepted in high ranking high school and met her crush in junior high school. we can feel her anxiety when she knew something was wrong inside her body. we can see how she struggled alone. how the eyes kept staring when she walked strangely.
i cried before when i watched sad movies but i never cried this much and it was tiring to finish all episodes. right from the moment she was a normal girl until she couldn't walk, couldn't talk, couldn't write and even couldn't swallow properly. taihen da! but luckily she got her family. her friends. and her [what should i call him] boy friend? she got this diary she wrote everyday and some of her phrases are catchy. for instance "okaasan, kono byouki wa nande atashi wo eranda?" is it fate? coz it's unfair. it makes me think how ungrateful people, including me, of their health. smokes, drugs, beers, suicidal, what are these for anyway? we are lucky and we should aware of that. we're not thanking GOD enough.
then "okaasan, atashi wa kekkon dekiru?" . future. it makes me think again how married people, excluding me hehehe, ungrateful with their marriage life. i know humans are greedy. that's what he said in one of the episodes. that's natural, right? but sometimes it's just too much. funny isn't it? how person's life can be totally different from others. that's life anyway. when some people are struggling with their lives, trying to keep on living, some others are ruining it, trying to stop it. gosh. that's totally life.
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Friday, February 10, 2006
this time i shall introduce my valuable vegetables to you. just call us 'fresh friday'. i don't know when and how we got this name but surely i luv it and unquestionably i luv them all.
juni a.k.a lou is the fairiest of all. lol. she has fair skin that's why we call her lou from lobak or turnip in english. she's calm even sometimes can be retarded, too. wanna please her? WoW is an excellent option. her sleepy attitude during the class can tickles you.
menoedh's a.k.a tom's face can turn red when she feel embarrassed thus we call her tomato. she's tough yet sensitive. can't say no to linkin park, n sync, and anime especially kenshin and fruit basket. don't be surprise when she sends you an sms but actually it's not for you. that's her.
irma a.k.a lee will make you laugh with her 'one-sided' things that she does. maybe she's the craziest among us but also the most creative vegetable i've ever known in my whole life. she's the one who got an idea to earn money.
simply call them splendid. wonderful. terrific. i truly will cherish them. my amazing vegetables.
Written down by Ai at 5:02:00 PM
Wednesday, February 8, 2006
have you ever loved someone so much that you would die for him/her? how does it feel when the one you love does not love you back? it hurts.
how about vice-versa? someone loves you so much that he/she would die for you but you don't love him/her back. it hurts as well. am i right? i know how it feels. how it feels when he walks through me and takes my breath away but i can do nothing about it. how it feels when he sees me and i see him and that's it. how it feels to see him right through his very eyes but knowing the fact that they're not mine [oh crap!]. here's a good quote i got from some website: love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning. true. maybe it's not yet the right time but i'm sure somewhere somehow there is one perfect person for every one. remember, GOD creates every human being with a partner. and what is the difference between love and like? in front of the person you love, your heart beats faster. but in front of the person you like, you get happy. i know i like them and i want to be with them in good times and in bad times. but i love him and i want him to be happy no matter what. i love his good sides and even his bad sides.
sometimes it hurts when you know the truth that he does not feel they way that i do. but then i think again. what if we are in the same position? he loves someone but she does not. then we're even. and i think again. it is good loving someone because to love is not to receive but to give. and it is also good being in love. maybe not by him. but the love from family. bestfriends. friends. by anyone under the sun. because you know they love you. then i don't worry anymore about loving someone who does not love me back. and last but not least simply because love will not hurt you. if it hurts you then it is NOT love.
. just me who being sentimentil because of love [lol] .
Written down by Ai at 7:31:00 AM
Tuesday, February 7, 2006
...you answer "hai!" even when speaking English to non-Japanese friends.
..."Ohio" no longer means the state.
...you can name all the members of SMAP.
...your noodle slurping can rattle the windows next door.
...you can fall asleep on the train and wake up at your stop.
...you know your birthdate by the Japanese imperial calendar.
...you can't remember saying 6 bucks was too much to see a movie.
...you can recognize your stop when the train announcer says it.
...you can recognize anything besides your stop when the train announcer says it.
...you walk into a room with chairs and choose to sit on the floor.
...you believe no party is complete without a trip to the karaoke box.
...you answer the phone and freeze in indecision between saying "hello" or "moshi moshi."
...you choose "moshi moshi."
...you mutter "yoshi!" when lifting heavy objects.
...at 5'4"....you feel tall!
...you can buy a train ticket anywhere in under 30 seconds.
Written down by Ai at 4:10:00 PM
You might be addicted to Mafia Boss when:
1. You wake up sweating from a nightmare and all you can remember from it is that your defeenses got wiped out and they stole your planes.
2. You measure how long you slept by how many turns you have accumulated
3. Your signifigant other hates the game, not because of the game but because you only have one computer and they cn't play.
4. You run back to your office after a meeting and cuss out your boss because he made you miss that $45million attack and now that mafioso has defenses again.
5. You check your family board every time a message pops up but can't remember the last time you checked your email.
6. You know the allies and enemies of other families without having to double check.
7. You have asked Ringmistress out, fully knowing she is 1000 miles from you. (So when ya gonna come see me Mistress?)
8. You can judge accurately how much money a supporter has spent by how many operatives he/she has.
9. You miss a free movie with friends because your family is at war and youre worried you might get attacked.
10. You completely understand the algorithms involved in the game and can accurately predict the outcome of an attack before you commit to it.
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Monday, February 6, 2006
it's holiday time and holiday time equals to diet time. LOL. my mom really supports me. hahahahaha i know i know. i should've done it long time ago. but i dunno why i think i must do it properly this time [blushing]. hope i REALLY do it tho'.
oh yeah before i went back to tokyo my friends and i went to karaoke [again] but this time was girls' night out! yay! only me. inan. windy. and arum. then elbebih called me. she was with vidya rama dana. 2 hours of singing [oh no. don't think about my voice. it's horrible.] was enough for me. so vidya rama and i decided to go home early whilst arum inan elbebih dana continued. windy had already gone home because she was still had long trip to take. hehehehehe. before went straight home, we went to Boo rental to return dvds that we [mitata. arum. inan. me] borrowed. and they charged me 3000 yen for late returning. d'oh! bimbo ni natta ne! hehehehehe. then the 3 of us [vidya rama me] went to my home for little chat and chocolate royce. actually it wasn't chat but more like made fun of something. hehehehehe. not gonna say it here. will be offense for some people.
the next morning, i had to get up early to catch a bus to oita airport. but still i was late for about 5 minutes coz i saw the bus running in front of my face. damn! then i have to wait for about 30 minutes. huhuhuhuhu so damn cold. i received an email from inan. she said something about someone. okay i was embarrased. still wished what she said was true. HAHAHAHAHAHA [blushing] what am i talking about anyway?? and now i'm sitting here. feeling happy for holiday yet anxious since i still haven't got my newest grades. hope i'm doing good this time. at least better than before.
oh my GOD i'm already missing my friends [and someone hohoho]. still long time to spend before school starts. huhuhuhuhuhu. oh well gonna enjoy myself here. yosh! ganbare for the holiday! new semester new me! arum. mitata. GANBAREEEE! LOL. hehehehehehehe.
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Wednesday, February 1, 2006
what is the most interesting about graduation party? is it the "atmosphere" of togetherness? or is it because of food? maybe yes. maybe no. we just had graduation party for seniors in Spa Beach Matogahama Koen. well it was not just about graduation but also farewell party for exchange students [in spite of the fact that none of them was there, oh there was one person, wim, and actually he is not an exchange student] and for APUIna's website launching. and for giving the "Sayembara Logo" winner the presents as well.
we really had a great time. or at least i had great time. especially for the games. ah well even though we didn't win but it doesn't matter, does it? give a big applause for ima and erlyn. and there was FOOD! ah everyone's favourite. undoubtedly oishikatta! of course! coz it was from Bu Lita. thank you soo much Bu Lita. actually thank you very very much guys for coming today. we had good time, didn't we? and then... we went to karaoke. that was something. hehehehehehehe in short once again. i had fun. after the crazy exams week. woo hoo. and it's time to go home. go back meeting my parents. and my lil brother. really really miss them lots. just few more days. hehehehehehehe.
yesterday inan. mitata. windy. and me watched youtube.com. the next of american idol. LOL. it reallt tickled me. and i wonder. some twins participated. and most of them [maybe all] got really nice voices. lucky for them they both got it. just bring it on, guys. hehehehehehehe. actually i need to get some action to clean up my room but i'm still too lazy. maybe tomorrow i'll start it. maybe just maybe. well guys i gtg now. gotta check this dvd i borrowed from my friend. hehehehehe corpse bride. go on laugh but i don't give a damn. hehehehehe. cya~~~!
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