[ firsts and lasts ]

...EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRST...

1. First real best friends: ratih, putty, and ilma.

2. First school: tk yasporbi.

3. First screenname: pank_ponk84cool.

4. First cell phone: the old erricson.

5. First funeral: my grandma.

6. My First pet: rabbits.

7. First big trip: tokyo when i was 8 years old i guess.

8. First flight: forgot. hehehehe.

9. First celebrity love: vincent a larusso. love him so much!

10. First job: translator [well not professional tho']

11. First Friendster friend: Rae.

...EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS...

1. Last person you hugged: my dad.

2. Last song you heard: ace young - father figure.

3. Last car ride: wow! long time ago.

4. Last time you cried: weeks ago when i watched 1 litre of tears. that title is something.

5. Last movie you watched: pretty cool.

6. Last food you ate: yogurt strawberry.

7. Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to: my annoying lil bro.

8. Last item bought: train ticket. yesterday.

9. Last shirt worn: white t'shirt i'm wearing.

10. Last phone call: my dad. hours ago.

11. Last text message: wumzie. miss you much!!

12. Last thing you touched: keypads.

13. Last Funeral: my grandma.

14. Last time at the mall : funny. really don't remember.

15. Last time you were excited about something: last night.

16. Last person you saw: my mom.

17. Last thing you typed: . [dot. LOL]

18. Last Person that broke your heart: hmmmm. last guy that made me cry.

19. Last time you've been happy: last night when i found out that david's still on american idol. =D

20. Last Kiss: how about first kiss? hehehehehe.

| hik hik |

hari ini gw bener2 terkapar di tmp tidur.. tadi malem idung gw gak bisa buat napas sama sekali alias pilek berat ampun2an.. tolong! trus tadi pagi joget2 dikerok.. sakit men! minum obat daaan... tidur lagi! hahahahaha mengkebo dah gw.. emak bapak adek gw pegi keluar dan gw tidur ampe jam 2.. gila2an deh kebo-nya.. bisa bgt gak kebangun ampe jam segtu.. gw jg bingung knp gw bisa tiba2 flu.. yah selama ini sih emang pilek cman itu udah jadi penyakit seumur idup gw dan gw gak anggep serius [i know that's totally wrong but....] tp beneran hari ini i can't take it.. i have a fever, also.. maa ii yaaa.. skrg alhamdullilah udah baekan.. yah harusnya emang begitu berhubung udah tidur lebih dr setengah hari..

oh iyeh td malem [sebelom sakit] gw nonton american idol the top 24 results show di internet.. membego sendiri.. teriak2 sendiri.. deg2an sendiri.. smuanya sendiri deh.. favourite gw david masih selamat! tapi gw gak yakin minggu depan dia bakal selamat mengingat suaranya agak2 horror dikit n not that great tp saya masih mendukungmu! walopun gak nge-vote.. hehehehehe.. trus ace susahlah yaaa.. hahahaha suaranya cihuy bener! mukanya jg uhuy.. mantabh abis dah.. paris, lisa, mandisa and katharine pastilah safe.. yah gw tau sih gak akan ada yg bisa selamat 100% but at least they've voices.. n mrk jg gak neko2 kl gw liat selama ini [hahahahaha gile gaya!] gw rasa mrk bisa selamat sampe final 12 girls yey.. kl yg cowok... hmmmm elliott pastinya.. ace no doubt lah ya [pd bener gw].. kevin jg kayaknya diem2 menghanyutkan tuuu [kayak gw dooong.. tenang suka hanyut] yg agak2 bahaya sih kayaknya david n gedeon.. tp yah ntahlah... acara beginian mana bisa diduga sih.. tiba2 yg harusnya go to the next round malah gugur.. trus yg suaranya nge-pas malah jadi juara.. busyet! pokoknya i'm looking forward to seeing next episodes..

hmmm.. knp yah akhir2 ini gw sering mimpi buruk.. sedih deh.. padahal udah doa sebelom tidur.. hik hik.. kan bangun2 jd stress.. they felt soo real and that's why it seemed soo scary.. end of talking this.. btw.. mulai semester depan gw mo menerapkan sesuatu [apa sih tuh istilahnya] yg baru.. irit!! hahahahaha i know kedengerannya basi bgt tp yah moga2 aj berhasil.. selama ini udah nabung tp yah ntah napa lama2 abis juga.. gubrag! jadi... kurangin jajan [di famima especially] selaen hemat kan jd gak ngemil.. hehehehe.. trus kurangin jalan2 ke beppu kek, oita apalagi.. pasti kan bakal ngabisin banyak duit tuh.. trus kan pasti makan juga tuh.. hehehehe.. laluuu.. masak.. ini yg paling berat deh.. al least weekend lah masak, soalnya kl weekdays gw gak yakin bakal bisa.. malah gw yakin gak bakal bisa.. jikan nya susah buat gw.. hohohohoho.. trus semester depan gw harus lebih rajin belajar nih... ayooo bisa bisa!!! oh iyah! kurangin minjem dvd juga.. sangatlah buang2 uang.. hehehehehehe..

. new semester new me [let's hope for the best] .

. i feel stupid .

i've been thinking what i've done lately and i feel totally stupid.. "knp gw bisa gtu??" "ih! kok gw bego bgt sih!!" and all that stuffs. ah! emang dasar manusia, penyeselan selalu datang terlambat, bukan begitu bukan? memaaaang [arum's style] hehehehehe. oh iyeh kmaren gw nge-gym [ketawa gw garuk loh!] trus dengan segala kekuatan yg ada gw treadmill [catet: jalan doang. saya adalah manusia pembenci lari] trus make alat2 yg ada dsana dah pokoknya ampe eneg.. laluu pas mo pulang, eh tiba2 ada lekong cucok!! whuaaah dia lge lari di treadmill.. sayangnya yah gw udah selese.. mo pulang.. huuuuu hidup emang gak adil..

hari ini sebenernya pengen ke gym juga mengingat gw udah daftar yg artinya udah bayar, cman rasa malas lge menyergap.. jadinya cman sepedahan aje deh.. besok! yosh! hilangkan kemalasan! oh, bbrp hari yg lalu gw lge makan ama emak trus tiba2 nyokap cerita sesuatu.. pas waktu itu ke jkt, nyokap dateng ke acara apa gtu [sangatlah informative, bukan? hehehe] trus tamunya itu seseorang yg pernah mati suri.. dia cerita pengalaman selama dia mati suri.. dia di bawa ke neraka trus ngeliat orang2 yg lge disiksa dsana.. dan mulailah cerita nyokap ttg itu yg ngebuat gw mati rasa ngediemin makanan depan gw.. nyokap bener2 berhasil ngilangin napsu makan saya [apa harusnya nyokap cerita kyk gtu terus yah biar gw kurus?]

jadi begini.. ada orang yang mulutnya dimonyongin trus dipotong dan itu terus2an.. itu katanya dulu sewaktu masih hidup suka selingkuh.. dan cerita2 laennya.. na'uzubillah.. serem bener dengernya.. innalillahii.. serem serem... terus.. dah ah.. yg laen aj deh omongannya... i'm way too scared.. eh tp bukan berarti gw suka selingkuh trus jadi takut loh! mo selingkuh ama sape coba? christian bautista? oh with my pleasure... LOL! just kidding anywayz.. eh btw ada album baru nya yah? aih saya mao dong.. anyone? ada yg berbaik hati mao beliin gw? nyehehehehehehe... aduh bosen! pengen jalan2 tp sayang duit.. pengen jalan2 tp gak ada temen.. pengen jalan2 tapi tapi banyak tapinya.. di rumah doang jadinya begini.. bosan tidak tertolong lagi.. any any dah ah mo maen aje! dadaaaaaaaah.. pahaaaaaaaaa..... kupiiiiiing... cup cup..!!

/ jomblo /

ini bukan mo bikin blog tentang curhatan hati seorang jomblo kok.. bener deh.. tapi gw lge pengen bgt bgt bgt nonton JOMBLO... O EM JI DRAGON.. knp sih gak dipasang di jepang gtu pelemnyaaa?? yah kl dipasang juga saya teh bakal terbengong2 sambil [atau sampai??] terkentut2 ngeliatnya.. apa sih belebih.. mana bibi pake ngomong2 udah nonton 2 kalii pulaa.. kasih kesempatan buat diriku ngapa bi sekali doang.. kamu mah.. saya kan juga mao.. abis bukunya bikin gw ngakak guling2an sih.. jadi kan penasaran gtu ama pelemnya.. trus katanya christian ganteng.. aiiih kalo christian bautista sih emang ganteng jo! [eh bukan dia ya yg maen?]

jomblooooo... jombloooo.... tolooooong... [sekali lagi saudara, bukan curhatan hati] awalnya sih takut juga kalo ternyata filmnya mengecewakan.. tapi setelah mendengar pendapat teman teman saya tercinta di jakarta itu ternyata filmnya sangatlah lucu dan menarik hati para cecunguk yg nonton itu.. [excuse my language, miss!] kacruuuuut... ajaklah diriku ini nonton.. temanmu ini kesepian dsini.. tiap hari kerjaannya cuman begini2 aj [ini baru namanya curhat] gak ada kemajuan.. yg ada kemunduran sosial.. dapat terlihat dr isi blog yg amat tidak berguna ini.. btw mo cerita kejadian dr sabtu minggu dan hari ini, senin..

sabtu.. lupa ngapain.. ya udah lah cerita minggu aje ye.. eh lupa lagih.. senen dah senen.. hari ini diajak emak ke dokter gigi tapi saya menolak dengan sushi [mentah maxudnya] gak galak loh tapi nolaknya.. jadi gak ada namanya perang dunia antara ibu dan anak.. trus di rumah yah gtu deh.. nonton.. trus sepedahan.. trus mandi.. lalu begini dan begitu.. oh iyah insya ALLAH juli pulang ke indonesia.. berhubung bapak udah selese tugas dsini jadinya skrg tiap liburan bakal balik ke indo terus! yay! [ada yg protes??] lalu kami sekeluarga akan pindah rumah.. masih gak tau kmana.. [kok kedengerennya kayak homeless ya?] yah kl gak ksitu yah dsitu.. pokoknya salah satu.. moga2 lancar2 aje yeeee... btw ternyata lebih enak nulis blog pake bhs indo.. hehehehehe.. lebih lancar dah ceritanya.. banyak kan niii udah 3 paragraf ajeee...

btw [eh paragraf ke4 deh..] kok tmen2 gw gak ada yg online yaaa... hik hik kan pengen ngobrol.. gw gak bisa online pagi dan siang dikarenakan ini adalah HM ayah saya.. jadi yah mau gak mau [harus mau!] dibawa ke kantor setiap pagi kecuali sabtu dan minggu dikarenakan pada hari2 tersebut libur dikarenakan.. [HUSH!] dsini bapak saya sedang tertawa2 dikarenakan [again???] dorifu, komedi jadulnya jepang.. lucu sih emang walopun kagak ngarti bahasanya.. buktinya bokap bisa tertawa2 riang.. oh iyah td malem nonton alien vs pedophil eh predator.. hiiiii sumpah jijay bin bajay.. untung gw nonton gak pake kacamata.. jijay jijay.. ampe adek gw tidur jam setengah 12 padahal besoknya sekolah.. dasar gembel! ah udah ah capek.. wow ternyata barusan saya menceritakan kejadian hari minggu.. wow! ingat! hehehehehe dah ah.. mwah mwah!!

. hanya saya dan komputer tercintah yang selalu setia menemani kesendirianku .

[la la la]

i'm bored to death. help help help heeeelp. hehehehe. hmmm and also anxious. yosh! what's done is done. new semester new will! oh yeah!i'm ready. new semester. i'm ready. la la la la.

. start dancing and you'll smile .

i finished watching 3 dorama in a week i guess [kimi wa petto. 1 litre of tears. hana yori dango]. and i noticed from the 3 of them, someone gives cellphone. in kimi wa petto, the master gives the "dog" cellphone. in 1 litre of tears, the mother gives her daughter. and in hana yori dango, domyouji gives makino cellphone. that's the result when you got nothing to do. totally bored. no one to play to.

btw i know how it feels to be in american idol with simon, paula, and randy for the judges and go to the next round. i got this "accident" yesterday. i thought i lost my passport. for me ryuugakusei, it is the most daijina mono of course. i searched everywhere but it was nowhere to found. then at night i prayed and i prayed and i prayed but still no clue. the next morning i didn't give up. i searched in my parents' room and searched and searched and i found it! I WAS SO GLAD. thank GOD i found it. then i felt like "wow. the judges like me." lol. okay it's just me being hiperbola but i don't care. i'm still happy til now.

these days i don't know why but i like watching pinoy idol in youtube. hahahahaha guess i need something "new" now. well i do still like watching american idol tho'. right now i really feel like going to campus and studying. i need to use my brain properly. lol. what should i do anyway? du du du du du du la la la la la la.

. come on it's party time start dancing and you'll smile .

| music of my heart |

in my life i know i'll never be alone coz i've got my friends. i've got someone. i know for always someone's watching over me. and you've got a friend in me. for good times and bad times. when you laugh, i'll laugh with you. when you're feeling down, you can cry on my shoulder. because you are my truly friend. i cherish every moment, every second i spend with you. hari-hari bersamamu is anugrah terindah yang pernah kumiliki. i'll treasure everything about you. i'll draw picture of you inside my mind. when you need me, i'll be there for i know when i need you, you'll do the same. remember the times when we struggle with school, when we struggle against our own ego. we did, right? because we are the world's greatest. they say when you wish upon a star, your dreams come true. is that true? i know your dreams come true when you believe. we have unforgetable moments, undescribable story of our lives. we laugh, we cry, we sing, we do everything together. i won't forget all these moments so ingatlah hari ini. the days we have now because there is no turning back, i believe. our future awaits us. it won't be long til our graduation day and when that time comes, just don't say goodbye as you know it's not the end. it is just the beginning, a whole new beginning for us. everything will be different then. but there is one thing will still remain, kimi wa tomodachi. that won't change. i'll be there for you just the same as the present. remember me this way, the way i remember just the way you are. you are my friend.

. . . zutto ikite . . .

hontou. atashi ga kono you na dorama wo hajimete mita, ichi ritoru no namida. eigo de '1 litre of tears'. saisho wa futsuu no kanashii dorama mitai to omotta. demo ne, zenzen chigatta. doko ka chigau tokoro wakannai kedo, nanka chigau. ehem. kore kara eigo de kaku. i heard about this dorama from my cousin. when he told me about it, i just thought "aaaahhh.. another sad story ne!" i wasn't that interested because i was watching dorama 'Kimi Wa Petto' and it's so freaking funny. then as i finished watching kimi wa petto, the next day i was thinking of watching this series. and i began. big mistake?

1st episode was fine. it was starting to be a sad story but i could handle it tho'. as i watched another episodes, tissue became my loyal "friend". douzo laugh, call me being too sentimentil or a cry-baby but i cried. hehehehe. okay the story is basically about a 15 year-old girl suffered from incurable disease. sounds like the story-next-door? i know. maybe 1 thing that makes this series special is the 'based on true story' thingy. we can really feel her happiness when she was accepted in high ranking high school and met her crush in junior high school. we can feel her anxiety when she knew something was wrong inside her body. we can see how she struggled alone. how the eyes kept staring when she walked strangely.

i cried before when i watched sad movies but i never cried this much and it was tiring to finish all episodes. right from the moment she was a normal girl until she couldn't walk, couldn't talk, couldn't write and even couldn't swallow properly. taihen da! but luckily she got her family. her friends. and her [what should i call him] boy friend? she got this diary she wrote everyday and some of her phrases are catchy. for instance "okaasan, kono byouki wa nande atashi wo eranda?" is it fate? coz it's unfair. it makes me think how ungrateful people, including me, of their health. smokes, drugs, beers, suicidal, what are these for anyway? we are lucky and we should aware of that. we're not thanking GOD enough.

then "okaasan, atashi wa kekkon dekiru?" . future. it makes me think again how married people, excluding me hehehe, ungrateful with their marriage life. i know humans are greedy. that's what he said in one of the episodes. that's natural, right? but sometimes it's just too much. funny isn't it? how person's life can be totally different from others. that's life anyway. when some people are struggling with their lives, trying to keep on living, some others are ruining it, trying to stop it. gosh. that's totally life.

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i wonder, atashi ga nani ka dekiru kanaaa ~~

:: FRESH FRIDAY ::

this time i shall introduce my valuable vegetables to you. just call us 'fresh friday'. i don't know when and how we got this name but surely i luv it and unquestionably i luv them all.

juni a.k.a lou is the fairiest of all. lol. she has fair skin that's why we call her lou from lobak or turnip in english. she's calm even sometimes can be retarded, too. wanna please her? WoW is an excellent option. her sleepy attitude during the class can tickles you.

menoedh's a.k.a tom's face can turn red when she feel embarrassed thus we call her tomato. she's tough yet sensitive. can't say no to linkin park, n sync, and anime especially kenshin and fruit basket. don't be surprise when she sends you an sms but actually it's not for you. that's her.

irma a.k.a lee will make you laugh with her 'one-sided' things that she does. maybe she's the craziest among us but also the most creative vegetable i've ever known in my whole life. she's the one who got an idea to earn money.

simply call them splendid. wonderful. terrific. i truly will cherish them. my amazing vegetables.

| to love and not to love |

have you ever loved someone so much that you would die for him/her? how does it feel when the one you love does not love you back? it hurts.

how about vice-versa? someone loves you so much that he/she would die for you but you don't love him/her back. it hurts as well. am i right? i know how it feels. how it feels when he walks through me and takes my breath away but i can do nothing about it. how it feels when he sees me and i see him and that's it. how it feels to see him right through his very eyes but knowing the fact that they're not mine [oh crap!]. here's a good quote i got from some website: love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning. true. maybe it's not yet the right time but i'm sure somewhere somehow there is one perfect person for every one. remember, GOD creates every human being with a partner. and what is the difference between love and like? in front of the person you love, your heart beats faster. but in front of the person you like, you get happy. i know i like them and i want to be with them in good times and in bad times. but i love him and i want him to be happy no matter what. i love his good sides and even his bad sides.

sometimes it hurts when you know the truth that he does not feel they way that i do. but then i think again. what if we are in the same position? he loves someone but she does not. then we're even. and i think again. it is good loving someone because to love is not to receive but to give. and it is also good being in love. maybe not by him. but the love from family. bestfriends. friends. by anyone under the sun. because you know they love you. then i don't worry anymore about loving someone who does not love me back. and last but not least simply because love will not hurt you. if it hurts you then it is NOT love.

. just me who being sentimentil because of love [lol] .

[you know you've been in japan too long when]

...you answer "hai!" even when speaking English to non-Japanese friends.

..."Ohio" no longer means the state.

...you can name all the members of SMAP.

...your noodle slurping can rattle the windows next door.

...you can fall asleep on the train and wake up at your stop.

...you know your birthdate by the Japanese imperial calendar.

...you can't remember saying 6 bucks was too much to see a movie.

...you can recognize your stop when the train announcer says it.

...you can recognize anything besides your stop when the train announcer says it.

...you walk into a room with chairs and choose to sit on the floor.

...you believe no party is complete without a trip to the karaoke box.

...you answer the phone and freeze in indecision between saying "hello" or "moshi moshi."

...you choose "moshi moshi."

...you mutter "yoshi!" when lifting heavy objects.

...at 5'4"....you feel tall!

...you can buy a train ticket anywhere in under 30 seconds.

\ addicted to \

You might be addicted to Mafia Boss when:

1. You wake up sweating from a nightmare and all you can remember from it is that your defeenses got wiped out and they stole your planes.

2. You measure how long you slept by how many turns you have accumulated

3. Your signifigant other hates the game, not because of the game but because you only have one computer and they cn't play.

4. You run back to your office after a meeting and cuss out your boss because he made you miss that $45million attack and now that mafioso has defenses again.

5. You check your family board every time a message pops up but can't remember the last time you checked your email.

6. You know the allies and enemies of other families without having to double check.

7. You have asked Ringmistress out, fully knowing she is 1000 miles from you. (So when ya gonna come see me Mistress?)

8. You can judge accurately how much money a supporter has spent by how many operatives he/she has.

9. You miss a free movie with friends because your family is at war and youre worried you might get attacked.

10. You completely understand the algorithms involved in the game and can accurately predict the outcome of an attack before you commit to it.

. tokyo .

it's holiday time and holiday time equals to diet time. LOL. my mom really supports me. hahahahaha i know i know. i should've done it long time ago. but i dunno why i think i must do it properly this time [blushing]. hope i REALLY do it tho'.

oh yeah before i went back to tokyo my friends and i went to karaoke [again] but this time was girls' night out! yay! only me. inan. windy. and arum. then elbebih called me. she was with vidya rama dana. 2 hours of singing [oh no. don't think about my voice. it's horrible.] was enough for me. so vidya rama and i decided to go home early whilst arum inan elbebih dana continued. windy had already gone home because she was still had long trip to take. hehehehehe. before went straight home, we went to Boo rental to return dvds that we [mitata. arum. inan. me] borrowed. and they charged me 3000 yen for late returning. d'oh! bimbo ni natta ne! hehehehehe. then the 3 of us [vidya rama me] went to my home for little chat and chocolate royce. actually it wasn't chat but more like made fun of something. hehehehehe. not gonna say it here. will be offense for some people.

the next morning, i had to get up early to catch a bus to oita airport. but still i was late for about 5 minutes coz i saw the bus running in front of my face. damn! then i have to wait for about 30 minutes. huhuhuhuhu so damn cold. i received an email from inan. she said something about someone. okay i was embarrased. still wished what she said was true. HAHAHAHAHAHA [blushing] what am i talking about anyway?? and now i'm sitting here. feeling happy for holiday yet anxious since i still haven't got my newest grades. hope i'm doing good this time. at least better than before.

oh my GOD i'm already missing my friends [and someone hohoho]. still long time to spend before school starts. huhuhuhuhuhu. oh well gonna enjoy myself here. yosh! ganbare for the holiday! new semester new me! arum. mitata. GANBAREEEE! LOL. hehehehehehehe.

~ graduation ~

what is the most interesting about graduation party? is it the "atmosphere" of togetherness? or is it because of food? maybe yes. maybe no. we just had graduation party for seniors in Spa Beach Matogahama Koen. well it was not just about graduation but also farewell party for exchange students [in spite of the fact that none of them was there, oh there was one person, wim, and actually he is not an exchange student] and for APUIna's website launching. and for giving the "Sayembara Logo" winner the presents as well.

we really had a great time. or at least i had great time. especially for the games. ah well even though we didn't win but it doesn't matter, does it? give a big applause for ima and erlyn. and there was FOOD! ah everyone's favourite. undoubtedly oishikatta! of course! coz it was from Bu Lita. thank you soo much Bu Lita. actually thank you very very much guys for coming today. we had good time, didn't we? and then... we went to karaoke. that was something. hehehehehehehe in short once again. i had fun. after the crazy exams week. woo hoo. and it's time to go home. go back meeting my parents. and my lil brother. really really miss them lots. just few more days. hehehehehehehe.

yesterday inan. mitata. windy. and me watched youtube.com. the next of american idol. LOL. it reallt tickled me. and i wonder. some twins participated. and most of them [maybe all] got really nice voices. lucky for them they both got it. just bring it on, guys. hehehehehehehe. actually i need to get some action to clean up my room but i'm still too lazy. maybe tomorrow i'll start it. maybe just maybe. well guys i gtg now. gotta check this dvd i borrowed from my friend. hehehehehe corpse bride. go on laugh but i don't give a damn. hehehehehe. cya~~~!