reports.reports. endless reports

tomorrow's deadline.

not finished yet.

i'm so dead.

nuff said


note: this is what happens when you put off your tasks. not a good example.

meine random facts

1. gw itu adalah tipe yang sangatlah last minute alias procrastinate. contoh: sabtu ini gw ada deadline report 2, satu 4 halaman 1 lagi 15 halaman and guess what? YEAH! gw belom nulis satu lembarpun.. malah nulis blog.. yeee penting bener deh i.. kadang gw capek sama sifat gw yg paling bikin males inih.. sumpah tapi tiap kali gw mau mencoba untuk rajin, setan itu datang kembali.. RAJA KEMALASAN.. jadinya gw bakal excuse terus.. and i'm pretty sure that lots of people suffer from the same disease.. yak, gw sebut disease abis berbahaya banget sih.. PARAH!

2. don't ever give me, or even think to give me, centipede ato di bahasa indonesia dikenal sebagaiKELABANG. gw ga peduli sama kecoa, gw ga peduli sama uler yg pasti kelabang adalah makluk yg bisa bikin gw jadi ganas. i don't care siapapun yg ngasih ato cuman ngisengin gw pake kelabang maenan. gw bisa jadi super duper jahat. i hate that creature. unfortunately, di rumah gw ada ikan arwana yg tiap minggu harus dikasih makan dan makanan nya itu adalah yah you know what i'm going to write. k-e-l-a-b-a-n-g. waktu itu gw sekeluarga pergi trus plgnya beli kelabang. okay, gw udah memohon2 biar kelabangnya ditaro di mobil paling belakang ato kl bisa malah dibuang tp betapa sayangnya bokap sama gw itu plastik isi kelabang DILEMPAR ke gw. mobil melaju kenceng. kl itu pintu ga ditutup gw bisa loncat ke luar. seriously, segitu parahnya gw takut sm kelabang. i hate it. period.
ps: okay, i will NOT put any pic of it. i've tried and it didn't work. it gave me some kind of goosebumps. horrible.

3. disney never fails me. mau itu amusement parknya, lagunya, filmnya. i love eveything about disney. especially disneyland, no i mean disneysea. sumpah ya disneysea itu amusement park tercanggih yg pernah gw datengin. i've been there 3 times and i'd love to go there again. fly me to disneysea? i'll love you. hahahaha. ga semua orang tau ttg disneysea secara otak mrk udah terkontaminasi (halah terkontaminasi) sm disneyland. and if you compare disneyland tokyo and paris? man, you gotta LOVE tokyo. that's for sure.


4. first impression? not good. ask people who know me. bisa dibilang gw terlahir dengan muka jutek yg sangat sangatlah nyebelin. i admit that. gw diem aja disangka lagi bete. sampe ada dulu junior gw menyebut gw: SENPAI JUTEK (senpai: senior in japanese) bagooooosss.. trimakasih loh.. trus satu lagi itu sangat membenci gw dari hati terdalam. jleb! but fortunately, mrk skrg jadi tmen baek gw. hahahaha karma does exist, eh?
ps: mgk ini muka gw kl ptama kali kenal kali ya. nyebelin kan? gw aja sebel. hahaha


5. if you have facebook, maybe u know the application called 'speed racer'. gw maen speed racer tiap hari. yea every single day. knp? ya biar jadi juara satu lah. d'Oh! okay, gw addicted. sangatlah addicted. emg pasti bakal susah banget jadi ranking 1. nilai gw sama tmen gw yg skrg ranking 1 itu setengahnya. jadi ya, just wish upon a star. wish me luck! LOL


6. i have a deepest secret. a dirty little secret MWAHAHAHA no, no one knows. only me and MY GOD.

end of posting.

yakin bisa move on?

sepupu gw nulis di blog nya 3 posts terakhir buat gebetan nya, ato bisa gw sebut mantan gebetan according to her. yang pertama she wished him a happy birthday. nice. the second one she wrote sayonara which means she WAS ready to let him go. knp gw bikin gede2 tulisan was nya? soalnya di post dia yg terakhir she realized about something. gmana bisa move on kl tiba2 dia ngedenger sebuah band yg menyanyikan sebuah lagu yg liriknya sangat sangat sangat dalam dan yes, makes her remember him again. BAM !

and sadly, that happens to me too. yes, mister. me, the cousin.
i used to have a SUPER BIG CRUSH on someone whom i call my good friend in my campus. apparently he's not indonesian and you'd notice that he was pretty outsider among peeps from his country. at least he admitted that. well i didn't care. he was nice. no he IS nice. and i fell for him. but he had a girlfriend that time. shoot!

suddenly, i heard rumors that he broke up with the girlfriend. *yayness?* and we started to talk more often and send simple yet meaningful messages *well for me tho LOL* like good night or good morning and have lunch together couple of times. berharap? pasti dong. boong banget kl ga ngarep. tmen2 gw mulai men-cieh2-prikitipiw-in gw. kalo kata anak2 sekarang "CAPEEEK DEEEEH"

di saat gw lagi seneng2 nya naek ke langit ke lima *blm sampe tujuh bo" tiba2...........

"gw mau militer", he said

WHAT????!!!!

yeap, gw shock berat krn militer itu minimal 2 taun. dan gw dsana waktu itu ga nyampe 2 taun lagi.. means gw bakal lulus duluan sblm dia balik lagi. means: I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO SEE HIM AGAIN. that was a strike. big time, if you wanna know. sad? ya iyaaaa laaaahhh.. gw kalang kabut. mau nangis ga bisa but it made me pretty stress. gw cerita ke bbrp tmen deket gw dan mrk bilang "you have to CONFESS" OH MY GOD. i never confessed before. and i didn't want to. gw, pada saat itu, masih memegang budaya conservative di mana cewek itu TIDAK confess ttg perasaan nya. gw keukeuh ga mau confess sampe akhirnya gw tau kl dia bakal pergi hari berikut nya. DANG !

akhirnya setelah gw berpikir keras dan keras dan keras dan tidak juga menjadi lunak, gw confess secara implisit.
krn gw ga berani ngomong langsung gw kirimin dia lagu. and same as my cousin. abis nunggu bbrp lama, he said THANK YOU. ha! so much for the confession ya. saat itu gw jadi bingung sebenernya bener ga sih gw confess? ato harusnya gw ga usah ngomong apa2? maybe i should've let it to myself. that's what i thought.

and dia pun pergi *halah* gw membuka email dan yak! dia mengirim email ke gw. deg2an gw baca sambil gigit lantai. sampai satu line akhirnya gw tereak sekenceng2nya bak *busyet udah brp abad gw ga denger nih kata hihihi* ronaldo nge-gol-in bola ke gawang lawan. gw gak tau knp nyebutnya ronaldo dan gw ga peduli krn dia ga ada hubungan sm cerita gw. enggak, gebetan gw sama sekali ga mirip sama ronaldo if you ask. hohohohoho.

back to the main issue.

dia confess juga! hah! there you go.
dia bilang kl dia suka sama gw sebagai teman. dan LEBIH dr tmen. okay, what's that supposed to mean? i know i was naive. gw harus manggil roommate gw dan nanya maxud dia apa. and she was smiling while reading the email. dia bilang gw ga bertepuk sebelah tangan. HOREEEEEEEEE "i should be happy, rite?" okay, dia emang nekenin kl dia cuman mau jadi tmen. so that's it. gw ga bisa dan ga mgk berharap apa2. krn: pertama he wrote it clearly. kedua dia udah jaoh gitu looooh. tapi tiba2 terakhir dia nulis one phrase yg bakal gw inget mgk seumur idup gw.
kl di bahasa indo artinya: orang yg bener2 gw suka. thank you :)

gw masih email2an buat bbrp bulan tapi akhirnya qta lost contact sm sekali. dia udah ga bales email gw. ga pernah online sampe gw bener2 berhenti berharap. i moved on. at least i thought i moved on. sampe tiba2 bbrp hari yg lalu dia nulis di BUKUMUKA gw kata2 yg sama persis yg dia tulis hampir 2 taun yg lalu: orang yg bener2 gw suka. dan gw pun tumbang.

GIMANA BISA MOVE ON KL GINI CARANYA?

ich.bin.watashi.wa.my.name.nama.saya

WAW ! udah lama bener ga update blog dsini.. udah enak nulis2 di xanga hohoho tapi ya itu juga update kl lagi inget.. waktu gw baca2 lagi posting2 sebelom nya, kok isinya ngenes semua idup gw.. isinya penuh dengan hatred dan whining dan whining dan whining.. ck ck ck dasar yah manusia.. ga bisa berenti whining..

yaaaaaa eike kan juga manusia boooo.. jadi wajar doooong.. trus ini juga blog eike.. lagian kan gw ga menulis sesuatu against seseorang.. ups ada sih 1 hahahaha tapi itu sudah berlalu kok.. MWAH ! as i told before, gw ada blog juga di xanga tapi pake bhs inggris yg sangatlah acak adut dan gw tetep pede dan berjuang *ato ga tau malu? nyahahaha* menulis dalam bahasa inggris..

mau curhat dulu ah.. agak whining juga sih tapi biarin aja yah.. lebih baik dikeluarkan bukaan??
gw ikut les jerman.. susah banget boooo.. kirain bahasa jepang itu udah bahasa paling alien di dunia ini.. ternyata oh ternyata
jerman ga kalah syusyaaaahh temans !
kl jepang susah dengan kanji2 biadab itu, jerman menyiksa dengan benda plus artikel nya DAS, DIE, DER dor dor dor dor mati aja deh gw ngapalin semua nya.. huhuhuhuhu

kadang2 yaa kl gw lagi jalan2 ama tmen2 gw di jepang sana, gw bete banget kl liat ada anak kecil lancar bahasa jepangnya
*ya iyalah namanya juga anak jepang, kl lancar bahasa monyet baru gw bingung*
trus kadang2 juga gw berharap gw kembali kecil dan diajak ngomong dengan berbagai bahasa
so i'll be an expert di semua bahasa WAHAHAHAHAHA

contoh:
penanya: namanya siapa?
ai: ich bin watashi wa my name nama saya ai.
*weeess jago 4 bahasa canggih!*
penanya: ................

hidup akan lebih indah. period.
nyahahahahahahahahahahaha anyway, knp gw belajar bahasa jerman?
karena saya akan sekolah di jerman. UHUY !
end of posting

Tschuss !

gone

he left me hanging here

he's the one who makes me falling in love

and falling apart

i don't know when time would erase all the memories

a part of me wants to keep it

and yet another part of me doesn't want to

he's just too real